A Cheshire Smile

Hello all!

2010-12-27T09:51:00.003-05:00

You're beautiful :) by MissWonderlander on Polyvore.com

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L'année

2010-08-03T13:53:00.003-04:00

Wow, it's August already? August 3rd, no less. A year flew by so quickly... one more to go! Everything will be alright :)

First day of cross-country, wow... I can't imagine doing this everyday, at 8 a.m. And then afterschool once school starts... but I can't quit. As easy as that is, I can't. It is strangely satisfying and I feel accomplished for spending my mornings running instead of sitting around on a computer and doing nothing... although that is fun too! Aha.

I just finished watching "Heima." It's basically Sigur Rós playing a series of free, unannounced concerts in their home country, Iceland ["Heima" means home in Icelandic]. WOW. It is so amazing and beautiful! I definitely want to visit Iceland someday. It seems isolated a bit, quiet, yet full of life and interesting people... Sigur Rós, their music is just so wonderful and I can't think of another band like them [well, I know there are other ones like Explosions in the Sky and The Candlepark Stars and such, but I'm biased!]. Combined with the film, it's enough to make you cry at parts... and Jónsi is so funny! Especially at the end, it went something like this: "Kjarri [band member]'s grandmother came to our concert and thought it was really loud. Then she heard it was on TV, so she's like, 'Why don't we just watch it on TV?!' And our finale was really intense, with alot of lights and flashes. She thought there was something wrong with the TV and turned it off!" Ahaha...

365 days. Countdown!

Thoughts

2010-07-19T09:31:00.003-04:00

I'm so used to Tumblr... it's a bit weird blogging here.
No heart button and themes and "ask" boxes.

But still, hiiiiiii!

Inspirations

-"You Gotta Believe" ~The Rocket Summer
-Crystal Renn
-cupcakes with rainbow swirly frosting and Sesame Street/butterfly plastic rings on top :3
-ED books
-A Rocket To The Moon
-Fuji apples
-Joie
-Karlie Kloss
-A girl from Poland [amazing photography]
-Beautiful poet who weaves dreams out of words
-"White Oleander" ~Janet Fitch
-Revolutionary Road [movie]
-"Me And Mia" ~Teo Leo and the Pharmacists
-The Kite Runner [movie]

How do you change colour themes on here...???
I've been away too long.

"I've been dancing on the tops of rooftops..."

Everything's anew

2010-07-19T09:26:00.002-04:00

lifesindex.blogspot.com

Soon to be a collaboration between my friend and I.
Basically a series of inspirational little note cards [index cards]. Haha, get the pun? "Life's Index."
Inspired by this and this, maybe this, and this.

Nothing up yet, I have to get my scanner working......

How to not eat without your parents noticing

2010-07-05T16:07:00.004-04:00

Sid: How do you do it?
Cassie: What?
Sid: Come on, Cass. I mean you never eat anything. Your parents must notice or something. I dunno.
Cassie: I like you, Sid.
Sid: ...Okay.
Cassie: So, I'm going to show you.
[begins cutting up food]
Cassie: You have to do a lot of talking. I'm good at talking. You do that while you're cutting things up, a lot. And then, questions.
[lifts fork to her mouth, stops]
Cassie: Where's your student card?
Sid: Sorry?
Cassie: Your ID.
[resumes cutting up food]
Cassie: Have you got it?
Sid: No. I, uh, lost it somewhere, last week.
Cassie: Change the subject. This is great. I love these sausages. You should try one. Go on.
[puts a sausage on Sid's plate]
Cassie: Delicious.
Sid: Hang on, you didn't...
Cassie: You're not quite sure what I'm on about, but I keep distracting you. So, then, I up the ante.
[picks up Sid's plate of fries]
Cassie: Yum, I love this stuff.
[pushes a few fries onto her plate]
Cassie: Really delicious. You're really sure that I want some more, so I'll keep waving at you, until you stop looking at me.
[raises fork to mouth, stops]
Cassie: Where'd you lose it?
Sid: Sorry?
Cassie: Your ID. I mean, they won't let you use the library, will they?
[checks watch on her ankle]
Cassie: God, I've got to go.
[starts clearing her plate, onto another one]
Cassie: So full. Gotta dash.
[gets up to leave]

Skins, of course. Our dear Cassie... so charming. Of course I would like the dreamy anorexic girl...
All the people on the show are so interesting. It reminds me of Glee or something, but with better characters and more problems... A gay guy [being gay is the least interesting about him!] who wants to be a dancer, a Muslim who doesn't follow his religion devoutly, a really smart clarinet player who has rappers for her family... and more. Maybe that sounds cliché but the show is anything but!

And British accents. Yeeeah.

P.S. Happy summer!

2010-05-31T10:27:00.001-04:00

Journey Box by franny_glass on Polyvore.com

Houdini Harry Houdini attractions magic Scranton Poconos Pocono...
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Large Mint Green Linen Suitcase
520 GBP - mysugarland.co.uk
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Antique White Globe. 5" dia.
$6.95 - crateandbarrel.com

Art Effect - Jim Mullan Opera Glass Bird
$300 - shoparteffect.com

Stitchy Circles Vectors by Designfruit
$12 - designfruit.com

Stampington & Co. - Shore Cliff by Christine Adolph
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Little Paper Planes
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Peel and Stick Wall Decal - Birds in Trees : Target
$13 - target.com

steampunk giraffe
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Gillian Allen Digital art
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2010-04-24T12:58:00.002-04:00

"I never really know who you are
You could be a ghost for all I know

Picking up pieces of my heart
Like leaves that have fallen on our garden path

You're a million miles away but
You couldn't be nearer."

2010-04-06T22:09:00.000-04:00

It's been awhile.

I have nothing to say.

Except that Ivonne Thein is amazing.

Tumblr & goodbyes

2010-03-16T16:34:00.004-04:00

http://hyperoverdose.tumblr.com

My latest project.

Speaking of projects, I better start working on my tree journal again. I've been slacking for about... 3 months? I blame it on the snow.

Goodbye blog, for awhile!
A busy busy life + Polyvore + tumblr = a miniature migration.
:)

'Til next time!

Mon rêve...

2010-03-13T22:09:00.004-05:00

Howl's Moving Castle!!!
I really want to rewatch that movie now.
Currently during lunch, my friend is showing "Fight Club." :D
I'm excited to watch it!
Films are so good.

On a side note, I have no idea how to use a tumblr.
Yeah... I got inspired by someone. I like looking at pretty pictures.
And this song is stuck in my head...

"Your sweet moon-beam, the smell of you in every single dream I dream
I knew when we collided, you're the one I have decided
Who's one of my kind."

What do you do when you miss someone?

3/13.

2010-03-13T21:50:00.003-05:00

I'm so happy I'm done with my SATs.
It was kinda like a reunion 'cause I saw my friends from other schools there! Funny place to have a reunion whilst taking SATs!
It went by pretty quickly, actually. But I was panicking a bit 'cause I started to run out of time on the writing sections. I feel like I did alright on the reading section though, so I calmed down... I don't know about math at all. I guess we'll just wait until April 1.

April Fools'. How appropriate, right? I bet they'll send me a letter saying I got 2400 and then... "April Fools!'' Aha. That would be really funny, but too bad College Board won't do that. April 1 is also the date for HSD! Aaaaah. -deep breath-

Today's such a relaxed day.
I finally went shopping with my friend after about a month and we completely forgot where all the stores were at first... And then Church tomorrow! I've never been so excited.
So sequins are back! At Forever 21 and all these stores, sequins were everywhere. No kidding! I'd like something with just a scatter of sparkle, but nothing like those miniskirts made entirely from gold sequins... bling much? And then those matte sequins that aren't shiny at all... what's the point? I really liked this... flapper skirt though. It was black with all this fringe on it and when you move, it moves with you. WHOOOOoooooosh! Too bad it's kinda expensive. I like 1920s' fashion though. Anyway...
It's frustrating when they don't have something in your size.
By the time we were done, it was dark outside and raining. It was so nice.
Daylight savings time means if I sleep at midnight, it's actually 11.
I'm such a rebel, staying up so late...!

Life in pictures

2010-03-11T16:46:00.007-05:00

A playing card clip I made awhile ago. I wore it for the opening of Alice in Wonderland :)
Special occasion! Everyone should try making this; it's super-easy and fun, and you'll get alot of compliments on it!

My assignment book. It's much more vibrant in real-life though... I think the colours got muted as I took the picture. The quote/song lyric in the speech bubble is updated every quarter!
My friend does it for me, and we collaborate on the rest [mainly her though!]. For 3rd quarter, "Relax, take it easy" comes from the song of the same title by MIKA! It's such a good reminder for me, especially as SATs and alot of tests are coming up >.<

Little doodles by moi.

My friend and me started drawing on little index cards for each other in physics. We waste so much time in that class... aha.

The little girl's left arm is demented... poor her! Oops :p
A song lyric from "The Show" ~Lenka.

I draw during almost every period of my A days.
I need to in order to get through the day.

Alice & Movies!

2010-03-09T21:10:00.003-05:00

WOW.
A long-need update!

So I saw Alice in Wonderland (the Tim Burton version, of course) on opening night.
My thoughts? The scenery was really beautiful, and really reflected the kind of dark/haunting/yet beautiful Tim Burton feel... I was SO excited when the Mad Hatter appeared at the Tea Party! Johnny Depp played the role so well. The ending part with slaying the Jabberwocky was a bit... overdone and unneccessary... I mean, the battle scene as the climax has been done so many times before. But I really liked the movie's actual ending, with the Smoking Caterpillar turning into a butterfly! Overall, I really enjoyed it. I think I will buy Alice on DVD when it comes out! Alice's futterwacken [sp?] dance at the end was such a funny sign of rebellion x] There is so much Alice merchandise now; I really want a new Alice t-shirt...

So I've been watching movies after getting home from school. Movies DO take up alot of time, but I usually come home and waste time on the Internet anyway... "An Education" is such an amazing movie!! From the beginning to the end, everything was so perfect, and I love Jenny's accent. What else can I say... you HAVE to watch it. It reminded of me of Lolita, Breakfast At Tiffany's, and (500) Days Of Summer... :) Carey Mulligan is so pretty! With her short hair, she almost looks like Mia Wasiakowska...

And I finally watched "Spirited Away" for the FIRST TIME today. Yeah... I've never seen it before! I kept on putting it off for some reason; I meant to watch it during the summer... well. Chihiro and Haku are so cute. I love her voice actress! No wonder everyone loves this film. It's just so, so... classic. The pigs were kinda disturbing though... they reminded me of "Animal Farm." And have you noticed that there's always a fat, blubbery sloppy creature in Miyazaki films? Like... the witch in Howl's Moving Castle and No-Face when he eats all the people... but anyways, Hayao Miyazaki films are always pretty amazing. Howl's Moving Castle, Ponyo, etc! Maybe I'll go on a movie binge...

SATs on Saturday.
Then comes shopping and fun stuff. I can't wait.

Charlie.

2010-03-03T22:19:00.003-05:00

I love "The Perks of Being a Wallflower."
=]

"And in that moment, I swear we were infinite."

Infinite. by MissWonderlander on Polyvore.com

On an unrelated note, TWO DAYS UNTIL THE NEW ALICE IN WONDERLAND MOVIE COMES OUT!!! :D

Who else is watching it on opening night? [or midnight premiere?]

Creep

2010-02-28T22:16:00.004-05:00

"I don't care if it hurts
I wanna have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul."

Dreams are free [expletive]

2010-02-26T21:19:00.005-05:00

It's funny how they write [expletive] in newspapers for interviews in which someone curses...

Um.
I don't really want to blog anymore.
I'm bored.
Feeling a bit like another post I've written about... Déjà vu.
.

There's not enough time to do everything I want tooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.

Paris/Cities/Musique by MissWonderlander featuring Forever21 skirts

Wishes x greyness by MissWonderlander on Polyvore.com

you're cute. by MissWonderlander on Polyvore.com

I don't eat. by MissWonderlander on Polyvore.com

...when you're bored, Polyvore is a good cure.

My feelings are more important than yours

2010-02-26T21:10:00.005-05:00

Revamp!
Uuum.... I'm not sure this is how I meant for it to turn out when I started changing it!
I kinda wanted it to be black and everything is floating in it, like the Cheshire Cat's maniacal grin.It's certainly... darker than before.
But a change is needed, especially since it's A WEEK until the new Alice in Wonderland movie comes out! :D

*************************************************
Razor blade, that's what I call love
I bet you pick it up and mess around with it
If I put it down
It gets extremely complicated
Anything to forget everything

You got to take me out
At least once a week
Whether I'm in your arms
Or I'm at your feet
I know exactly what you're thinking
You won't say it now
But in your heart it's loud

Oh no, my feelings are more important than yours
Oh, drop dead, I don't care, I won't worry
There you go

Oh, the razor blade
Wish it would snap this rope
The world is in your hand
Or it's at your throat
At times it's not that complicated
Anything to forget everything

He would never talk
But he was not shy
She was a street-smart girl
But she could not lie
They were perfect for each other
Say it now
'Cause in your heart it's loud.

Ideas

2010-02-23T21:46:00.004-05:00

So I've been thinking about some new blog ideas:

1) I have some friends who continually wear really cool jewellery [like I have an Earrings friend and a Rings friend]... so I've been thinking about making a blog dedicated to their style? Maybe? I'd have to remember to bring my camera all the time though...

2) A collection of beautiful people [in my opinion, at least]. But none of them will be celebrities, just my friends and/or other people who are pretty...

3) A music blog? Well... I don't discover -that- much cool music though >.<

In psychology class, I started thinking about characters with parts of their brain cut out... like the lateral hypothalamus. Or getting their amygdalas damaged and then being fearless in their life.

I don't even know.
Thoughts?

Double Approach-Avoidance Conflict

2010-02-23T21:19:00.014-05:00

"Grounded, boxed in, I'm stuck with you..."

Stalkerness + potential friend + clingyness + extreme perseverance and dedication = a very odd friendship.

And now for some pictures!

Taken by my friend Cat during lunch! I love the macro setting... [THAT'S what it's called when one thing is in really sharp focus and everything else is blurry! I love it!]

Another lovely photo. Taken during French class by Cat as well.
Her stuff is so cute :3

A very...... special friend who goes by Rishi.
Those photos down are all taken by moi.

Smile! And she says those kitty ears don't look good on her...
Stephen Smiley, Type A.
Oh my gosh, those stereotypical character-types are so fun to read x]
"Nietzsche Wannabe."

I felt bad for taking photos of her in my dress... 'cause it was kinda cold. Actually, not as cold as usual, so maybe the weather was being nice to us. I love the look of girls wearing dresses in the winter though, especially when paired with snow. It's a nice contrast... I was gonna have her draw a heart.

Snow!

I was trying to go for the Mulan look... like the reflections?
"When will my reflection show who I am inside?"

And... a random picture of my nails.
I found these nail art stickers and put it on top of colour-changing nail polish...
they got all sticky and started peeling though >.<

Soaked

2010-02-23T21:03:00.005-05:00

Picture credits to *sweetmoon.

"Soaked to the bone
Sink like a stone
Walk home alone
It's not the first time, it's not the worst crime
Your soul will be okay

When you've had enough
Searching for love
And you miss the touch
Of someone new

Burns by dreams
It's never how it seems
Cold crushed esteem
Take shelter and hide forever
Your soul will be okay."

Muse + Adam Lambert + new song = !

W-O-W!!

2010-02-21T16:02:00.002-05:00

OH. MY. GOODNESS.
Is this guy awesome or what?? Just look at those newspaper leggings! That is like, mad creative.
It must be really hard to walk in those shoes with the wood planks on them, but way to make a fashion statement.
I like the tree branchy things near his head as well...
Did you know there's this clothing site that sells stuff entirely made out of tape? Like, prom dresses made out of colourful duct tape... and it actually looks pretty good. For tape, anyway! I really need to find that site.

People's creativity scares me. How do they come UP with this stuff??
I originally saw a post on this girl's blog [she's always posting awesome stuff on crazy and impossibly brilliant fashions]: click!

F A T CELLS

2010-02-16T20:26:00.006-05:00

I am horrified.
Today in psychology, we started the motivation chapter and talked about what motivates us to eat.
Well, while talking about the biological/genetics behind it, my teacher said that every person is born with a certain number of fat cells. And when you can NEVER lose them. If you're born with 1,000,000 fat cells, when you die, you'll still have 1,000,000 fat cells. A normal person has about 30 billion fat cells to store energy in [wow, that's aLOT!]. When you lose weight, you're simply SHRINKING the size of the fat cells, you don't get rid of them.

Huh. I always thought that when you lose weight, you eliminate fat cells... common misconception, I guess. And it's way easier to gain weight than lose weight, of course.

"When you eat alot, your fat cell may expand and split into TWO! Now you're stuck with one more fat cell for the rest of your life."

Oh MY.
Isn't that disturbing?
I found it so sad that I didn't even eat lunch.
Thinking about those multiplying fat cells inside my body...
[but don't worry, I went home and ate some apples and yoghurt]

So now you know the truth about fat cells.
That was super-educational, wasn't it?
:]

All kinds of wonderful things

2010-02-16T16:36:00.012-05:00

My first attempt to make donuts!
Which kinda turned out like bagels, since we didn't have a deep fryer [we baked them!].
Covered in strawberry frosting and rainbow nonpareils, they look perfectly delicious though :)

My mum made sushi. It looks quite good, doesn't it?

An Alice- in-Wonderland-inspired gift for my best friend's birthday. Inside is a scroll with her poem printed on it.

Wonderland

See the lines blur, the colors pale
And the towns fade away.
Let us go, escape the noise of the city.

Forget what you know,
What you are used to,
What you are comfortable with.
Yes, leave it all behind,
They are not part of you.

We would run into the woods,
Covering our bodies with morning dew
Filling our noses with fragrance
Flooding our eyes with misty green.

Down the rabbit hole we shall fall, fall, fall,
With no purpose but to fly,
Slowly but surely,
Into the unknown.

At the same time, we shall learn to let go:
Our memories, our pains, our fears.
And realize, once and for all,
Who we are without the backdrop,
And what we are when owning nothing but
A dream in our heads.

Joie Zhang © 2009

"Drink Me."
I should've put "Read Me," but then it wouldn't have made sense to put it in a bottle... aha.
I love message in a bottle type of things. Floating out to sea...

That's actually silver friendship bracelet string!

A cute comic from the Saturday morning newspaper.
I suppose this is more appropriate for Valentine's, so consider it belated!
"Maybe everything we've ever done has been for love."

"Don't you have the feeling," asked Madame Bovary, "that something happens to free your spirit in the presence of all that vastness? It raises up my soul to look at it, somehow. It makes me think of the infinite, and all kinds of wonderful things." ~p. 97

"Have you ever had the experience," Léon went on, "of running across in a book some vague idea you've had, some image that you realise has been lurking all the time in the back of your mind and now seems to express absolutely your most subtle feelings?" ~p. 99

Gustave Flaubert is a great, very descriptive writer... he goes into so much detail about the places that I can picture it extremely vividly. In that sense, he almost reminds me of Oscar Wilde [in "The Picture of Dorian Gray," at least!]. I think there's a movie version of Madame Bovary... Not sure if I want to see it, but I guess I should finish the book first. My friend already spoiled the ending and says Emma is a terrible heroine, but... we'll see!

Two days in one! [happy Chinese New Year and Valentine's!]

2010-02-14T22:34:00.007-05:00

It's so coincidental that both Chinese New Year and Valentine's Day are on the same day this year. I think Chinese New Year overshadowed Valentine's a bit, which I think some people will be very happy about.

There's alot of bitterness towards Valentine's Day.
But... all you need is love, right?

So we went to Church for a potluck dinner. People should bring more fruits there, because I only got one clementine and by the time I went back, there were no more! But everyone was sitting in the room with the piano, and the drummer guy for praise team started playing all different piano songs. Everything ranging from classical to pop... Everyone started singing along to "Love Song" and "Do Re Mi" and it was so great. Too bad my best friend wasn't there, it's her birthday tomorrow.

The performances were really good too! There was this interview thing [in the spirit of Valentine's Day] where married couples had to see how well they knew each other. And the wife would write her answers and the husband was supposed to guess what she wrote. It was sooo funny, especially with some of the deacons and elders... "What's your strongest asset to the family?" "Hmm... weeeell, I have so many, it's hard to pick..." "Here's a hard one: when is your child's birthday?" "Uuuuh......" x]

There was also this skit performed by these two elderly grandmas, reminiscing about their childhood Chinese New Years'. And they put red paint [rouge] on their cheeks and forehead and ate lollipops and acted like little kids! It's really cool to see old people pretend to be children. It's like... they haven't lost that spirit, you know?

And then there were some unexpected perfomances by this guy who started breakdancing, and he was really good. Like... flips and cartwheels! And this girl wrote a song during dinner, which she performed [with her friend translating into Chinese after each line she sings! aha]. She has an amazing voice, so she'd be singing and right after, her friend would say the Chinese translation in a monotone voice... so amusing. And then this little boy started doing karate! We started joking that he'd be joining the 2020 Olympics and represent the U.S.

Finally was the skit we'd been all waiting for... by the youth group, of course! So it's based off the classic Chinese zodiac story, about how the zodiac order was determined on which animal met the god at the mountain. Except it was a race. And everyone dressed up like the animals! My friend [the tiger] had on face paint and wore a shredded orange shirt over a black one to simulate tiger stripes x] And his sister played the monkey, she was the only animal registered at the race and all the other animals kept dropping out! For example, the tiger shows up with a KFC box and is like, "Oh yeah, the chicken won't be showing up this year... or the year after that..." Aha. Poor chicken! And then the rabbit [drummer guy!] comes in and is like, "Gosh, I just finishing racing with the tortoise, I can't believe I overslept AGAIN!" But in the race, of course the rabbit oversleeps once more [does he ever learn?] and the monkey trips over the sleeping rabbit. So the tiger wins the race [but of course, since it's the year of the tiger!]!

All in all, super-fun night :)
And no school tomorrow, again!
It doesn't even come as a surprise now...

I hope everyone had a lovely Valentine's Day and/or Chinese New Year?

[photo credit to Jessica Lynn Chiang, my friend who does everything amazing. her photography simply astonishes me! she can't look bad or take a bad photo if she wanted to...]

Innocence

2010-02-14T22:32:00.009-05:00

"To be, or not to be.
Is that truly the question
of which we must really answer?
Or to take from the aimless contemplations
of an inquisitive mind:
Is it to know, or not to know?
Such a blind faith
to such an accidental love--
yet to not know, is,
not quite an issue of ignorance,
but of innocence
and the world to learn.
Broken paper hearts of
edgeless fissures and blurred porcelain pieces,
but with innumerable possibilities
and so we start anew.
Shy smiles, second first kisses,
muddy hand-prints and
sunshine finger-paints--
an undying cycle of
chubby fingers and a humble glue stick,
putting the oh so endearing, Humpty Dumpty
back together again.

When were our minds
corrupted with such realities...
such false truths?"

A lovely poem I found here: click to read the original post!
[by the talented Eugenie]
Please check out her poetry, it is amazing and so inspiring... I love her choice of words to describe certain things, and the images she can conjure in your mind...
I like how her blog name is a quote from "The Little Prince."
"Mais les yeux sont aveugles. Il faut chercher avec le cœur."
Et en français aussi!

2010-02-11T22:41:00.002-05:00

L'Amour by MissWonderlander on Polyvore.com

Fall asleep, spin the sky by MissWonderlander featuring Calypso dresses

Yeah, I made a bunch of YYYs sets today.

Did you know Karen O. was half Korean and half Polish?

We'll miss you

2010-02-11T22:31:00.003-05:00

R.I.P. Alexander McQueen!
His fashions are so beautiful...

I heard that Christian Lacroix also died recently? [oh, actually May 2009. But still relatively recent]
I remember seeing his neon-coloured confections on this Chinese fashion show once and being completely mesmerised...

It seems like so many famous people have passed away in the past year.
Or just recently [J.D. Salinger?]...

Let it burn

2010-02-11T09:14:00.005-05:00

I really liked this book...
I think it's a perfect connection for my AP lang class, it's very similar to 1984 in some aspects.

A future without reading and books would be terrible though.
I thought Clarisse was a great character but she disappeared very quickly...
The Mechanical Hound sounds sooo frightening... silver needles? Injecting heroin? Hmm... not.
So apparently there's a movie version, but it's not that good [like a lot of novel-turned-movies....].
I love the interview and afterword stuff, Ray Bradbury says "his subconscious" named the characters Montag and Faber. Montag is actually a paper company brand and Faber is the pencil brand... aha. In a book about banning books. And it's so cool how he "let the characters control everything..." I would love for my characters to tell the story... except I don't have a story or any good ideas.

Oh, I saw the Brave New World movie trailer.
It's the funniest thing!! Soma is in liquid IV packs and everything looks like New York City [I suppose it seemed futuristic then...], and the socialising is like a disco! Flash flash glitter sparkle.

I leave you with a few links!

-Fat Ugly Trolls [Watch out for a random L appearance at the end!] My friend thought this connected to the brainwashing of 1984...

-Be in a music video! They update it every hour, and all you need is a webcam to be in it!

-T-shirt wars. Amazing stop-motion animation!

Veggies are good for you

2010-02-11T09:03:00.000-05:00

"We don't need to eat anyone who would run, swim, or fly away if he could. -James Cromwell, actor

2010-02-09T22:00:00.005-05:00

Bored to death and succumbing to this weird thing called Formspring :p
Basically like an anonymous question box.

Of course, I discovered it through Polyvore... [http://www.polyvore.com/time/set?id=15895860]

http://www.formspring.me/appleadaygirl

Go for it!

Everything is adding up, up, uuuup

2010-02-09T10:47:00.002-05:00

Making my escape
Making my escape
Tell myself that
Everything's in shape
Everything's in shape
But me
How long can this take
How long can this take
Tell myself that
Everything is great
Everything is great
Well how'm I doing?

I gotta great idea
I'm gonna wait right here
I gotta great idea
I'm gonna wait right here
While everything is adding
Up, up, up
Everything is adding
Up, up, up

Breaking both my hands
Breaking both my hands
Telling me to
Take it like a man
Take it like a man
I can't
I don't understand
I don't understand
Please repeat whatever you just said
Nothing's making sense
Well how'm I doing?

I gotta great idea
I'm gonna wait right here
I gotta great idea
I'm gonna wait right here
While everything is adding
Up, up, up
Everything is adding
Up, up, up

They're breaking both my hands
They're breaking both my hands
And telling me to
Take it like a man
And take it like a man
Well fuck that
I don't understand
Said I don't understand
So please repeat whatever you just said
'cause nothing's making sense
Well how'm I doing?

I gotta great idea
I'm gonna wait right here
I gotta great idea
I'm gonna wait right here
While everything is adding
Up, up, up
Everything is adding
Up, up, up

2010-02-08T22:25:00.012-05:00

Some lovely photos of the snow...

I like the rainbowness against the white snow :)
There's a brigher picture... but I need to find it.

Our neighbour's poor tree!
Truly a snowy scene...

My mum's reflection! I took this near our window and the light reflected from the kitchen got captured in the shot.

I thought the half-circle atop the mailbox was funny... and then the glow of the streetlamp.

Shadows.

I LOVE ICE PICTURES.
End of story!!
For some reason, only this person's house had really cool icicles :D
I got really excited...
It's so icy and intricate and crystalline! Frozen H2O, aha.

Sunset. It doesn't look snowy at all, does it?

Again with the iiiiceeee.

My favourite!
The sunlight casts such a pretty glow on the tree branches... and the snow kinda looks like dewdrops...

D.I.Y.

2010-02-08T13:41:00.031-05:00

Yet another snow day...

Here's a picture post!
[I was really quite bored!]

My various projects and endeavors resulting from my boredness:

A work-in-progress of a turtleneck shirt I'm turning into a tank top.
I sewed one of the straps today, so I just have to finish the other one [hem and attach]. There's supposed to be another pocket with a skull on it... but I'm not sure whether to include it or not. This was entirely inspired by this: Click!
But I can't make anything from scratch, so I just worked with what I already had.

A pretty design! Aha.
Note how the white one is really looooong...

A white circley scarf I made from t-shirts and then tied with tulle.
Found on cutoutandkeep.com! Click!
They're both supposed to be white t-shirts, but one ended up looking grey 'cause it was my old
P.E. uniform... >.<

Finally, I turned this ugly tie-dye shirt into something beautiful :p
Actually, tie-dye is rarely ugly... maybe it was just the mustard yellow colour [it was really vivid and blotchy before].

My first attempt at the scarf, it's reeeally short. Only 12 loops!
And I don't know why I look so pale here, the picture was taken at the same time as the others... >.>

A simple skirt made out of my dad's oversized t-shirt.
I added the bows to make it cuter :3

A little cake made of felt.
I made it for my mum last year, when I was obsessed with felt plushies x]
I also made a taco plushie for my AP world teacher...
I should've taken a picture!

Cake?

Mr. Ghost!
Now I'm just taking photos of random things in my room... x]

Reading list! Just some of it...
I read "The Great Gatsby" yesterday.
I like the cover art!

I'm reading "Fahrenheit 451" now, it's quite good so far...
It took me awhile to realise that "firemen" weren't firemen in the traditional sense at all... perhaps "bookburners" would be a more approprite title!

I've taken the idea of putting little Post-It notes in books for people to find... with random song lyrics and inspirational quotes. I think I saw this on a Post-Secret or something... I like the idea of finding a little note randomly, in a book whilst reading... :)

I think this is Madame Bovary.

I wonder if anyone will actually find this...?
Someone also had the idea of making really minuscule drawings in books and then declaring to everyone you're having an art exhibit!

Catch-22...?

I like that quote.

What I'm watching!

This girl had the genius idea of making wish stars into earrings!!
It took me forever to poke a hole through it though, who knew paper would be so hard?
The rest are made with Shrinky Dinks, charms, or beads.

SUPER-COOL!!! I want my room to be like that!
This girl from the site... apparently some of the stars glow in the dark, too!

I made this!! My mum was quite impressed.
It was originally a turtleneck sweater. It's based off the "t-shirt shrug" idea off cutoutandkeep.com, but I added buttons instead of threading a ribbon.

I think I nearly fainted when I saw Mia Wasikowska on the cover of this month's Teen Vogue!!! [she's playing Alice in the new Tim Burton film]
Alice in Wonderland is everywhere :DD

Aliiiiice!
Wait.
WHAT 1972 U.K. adapation???
I gotta watch it!!!

So cute, the guy reminds me of Max from "Where The Wild Things Are"...
In fact, I think the resemblance is intentional.
From the prom insert of Teen Vogue.

Kurt Cobain in a cheerleader uniform!!!
Lol, this made me laugh :D

So my friend and I started a TWOLHA club at our school... Unfortunately, due to all the snow, it's uncertain when school will start again [hopefully not soon, that's for sure!], so I don't know when our first meeting will be...

But read this: Click! It's an article about the founder of "To Write Love On Her Arms", and I really really hope our club works out... It would be amazing to prevent someone from suicide, or to help people, even just one person. It would be worth it...

~List Of Movies To Watch~

-Eclipsed
-Milk
-Spirited Away
-Mickey Blue Eyes
-Princess and the Frog
-etc...

Come with me

We took a back road
We're gonna look at the stars
We took a backroad in my car
Down to the ocean
It’s only water and sand
And in the ocean we'll hold hands

But I don't really like you
Apologetically dressed in the best
But on a heartbeat glide

Without an answer,
The thunder speaks for the sky
And on the cold, wet dirt I cry.

Don’t you wanna come with me?
Don’t you wanna feel my bones
On your bones?
It's only natural.

A cinematic vision ensued
Like the holiest dream
It's someone's calling?
An angel whispers my name
But the message relayed is the same:
“Wait till tomorrow,
you'll be fine."
But it's gone to the dogs in my mind.
I always hear them
When the dead of night
Comes calling to save me from this fight.
But they can never wrong this right.

~Playlist~

1. "Purple Bottle" ~Animal Collective
2. "She Is The New Thing" ~The Horrors
3. "Skeleton" ~Yeah Yeah Yeahs
4. "City Girl" ~Tegan & Sara
5. "Frustration" ~The Whip
6. "Falling Slowly" ~Glen Hansard and Marketa Irglova
7. "Love Song" ~Sara Bareilles
8. "You Belong With Me" ~Taylor Swift
9. "Sugar Skulls" ~Wolftron
10. "Faces" ~Yeah Yeah Yeahs

I... I... I... I... you!
I... I... I... I... you! you!

What's he gonna
What's he gonna
What's he gonna get?

So long you'll never be afraid

What's he gonna
What's he gonna
whats he gonna get

So long you'll never be the same

Turn your head look right out
None of these faces matter
These are the ones you see right through
If it's gonna be it's all it's gonna be with you

I... I... I... I... you!
I... I... I... I... you! you!

Who knows where we are
All eyes alone
Tangled onto arms
Two arms are one

As long as were young
Keep you always In love
Fall in hands
Feel you holding us up

Crying for you.

******************************************************************

Sweet dreams mon cherie...
I'm making donuts tomorrow, get ready!

YOU ARE THE PURPLE IN ME

2010-02-08T13:02:00.010-05:00

I've gotta big big big big heart beat, yeah
I think you are the sweetest thing
I wear a coat of feelings and they are loud
I've been having good days
Think we are the right age
To start out own peculiar ways
With good friendly homes?

You get me freaked freaked freaked on preakness
Never met a girl that likes to drink with horses
Knows her Chinese ballet
Must admit you smell like fruity nuts and good grains
When you show my purple gaze
A thing or two at night

Make me sick sick sick to kiss you and I think that I would vomit
But I'll do that on Mondays I don't have a work way
I like it when I bump you, an accident's a truth gate
I'm humbled in your pretty lense
I'll hold you, don't you go
Sometimes you're quiet and sometimes I'm quiet
Hallelujah!
Sometimes I'm talkative and sometimes you're not talkative
I know....

Well I'd like to spread your perfume around the old apartment
Could we live together and agree on the same wares?
A trapeze is a bird cage even if its empty and definitely fits the room
And we would toooo

And my dear dear dear khalana
I talk too much about you
Their ears are getting tired of me singing all the night through
Let's just talk together
You and me and me and you
And if there's nothing much to say
Well, silence is a bore

I've gotta big big big big heart beat, yeah
I think you are the sweetest thing
I wear a coat of feelings and they are loud
I've been having good days
Think we are the right age
To start out own peculiar ways
With good friendly homes?

Sometimes you're quiet and sometimes I'm quiet
Hallelujah!
Sometimes I'm talkative and sometimes you're not talkative
I know....
Sometimes you hear me when others they can't hear me.
Hallelujah!
Sometimes I'm naked and thank God sometimes you're naked.
Well, hello.....

Can I tell you that you are the purple in me?
Can I call you just to hear you, would you care?
When I saw you put your purple finger on me
There's a feelin' in your bottle
Found your bottle, found your heart
Gives a feeling from your bottled little part

You suddenly complete me.

2010-02-05T22:50:00.006-05:00

J'Aimme by MissWonderlander on Polyvore.com

It's been snowing since 10 a.m. this morning, and all the snow is weighing my neighbour's tree down!! :(
But it's quite beautiful outside... everything, I mean EVERYTHING is buried in pure, white, undisturbed snow. The way our streetlamp casts a glow on it, the snow almost looks violet...
Today actually -felt- like we had a snow day off from school, I had fun...
Tea in the morning, then off to the library [Lewis Carroll's biography! The Great Gatsby, etc...]. They never have "The Perks Of Being A Wallflower" though, I finally put it on hold. Ha! :p
Is it -that- popular? Everyone says it's an amazing book though.
And then we bought ICE CREAM!!! It's NEVER too cold for ice cream!
Two cartons.
They have the weirdest flavours [in a good way though, I've heard of wasabi ice cream, bacon ice cream, etc... meat-flavoured ice cream: that's just revolting!]... "lemon sugar cookie", "key lime pie"...
I hope the key lime pie one is good. It's funny, I've eaten so many key-lime-pie-flavoured stuff, but never the actual pie itself...
I made like three circle-y scarfs off cutoutandkeep and failed miserably at making a dress... aha.
I did sew a cardigan out of my mum's turtleneck sweater, and she was quite impressed.
Maybe I'll post pictures here after I'm done sewing the button holes >.< [so time-consuming!'
At any rate...
Sleep time, good night~

~Quotes~

"Spend life with who makes you happy, not who you have to impress." ~Random Polyvore quote

"What? You're beautiful. People around you must be blind." ~Anonymous

P.S. The acoustic versions of Yeah Yeah Yeahs songs are so good... :D I've been re-listening to "It's Blitz!" and falling in love with it again... Acoustics are so beautiful!!

And Taylor Swift.

Kate Nash is brill =]

2010-02-05T08:37:00.004-05:00

"You're chatting to me, like we connect
But I don't even know if we're still friends
It's so confusing,
Understanding you is making me not want to do

And think things like: 'I know I should do'
But I trip up and then I lose
I hate looking like a fool

The lights are on
And someone's home
I'm not sure if they're alone
There's someone else inside my head
Living to fill me with dread

This paranoia is distressing
But I spend most of my night guessing
Are we not, are we together?
Will this make our lives much better?

I'm not in love
I just wanna be touched

Oops I think I've got too close
'Cause now he's telling me I'm girl that he likes most
Now I messed up, it's not the first time
I'm not saying you're not on my mind
I hope that you don't think I'm unkind..."

"Pumpkin Soup" ~Kate Nash
I love her British diction: "this para-noia is- dis-tressing."
Each syllable is so proper and distinct!

So yeah, this pretty much sums up my life lately.
Perfectly fitted into a song!
x]

Watch the video, it's sooo cute!

The set for the music video.

Love her shirt! x]
Kate's style is lovely... [I like her dresses and leggings stuff!]

I am a superstar with a big big house and a big big car

2010-02-04T16:43:00.005-05:00

"I am a superstar with a big big house and a big big car,
I am a superstar and I don't care who you are.
I am a superstar with a big big house and a big big car,
I am a superstar and I don't care who you are.

Got many money honey, I'm a superstar,
My life is funny honey, have you seen my car?
I know a lot of people, I'm a superstar,
Everybody knows me, right from near.

I got a plane (I got a plane)
I love the fame (I love the fame)
You know my name (You know my name)
And I just want you to know.

I am a superstar with a big big house and a big big car,
I am a superstar and I don't care who you are,
I am a superstar with a big big house and a big big car,
I am a superstar and I don't care who you are.

I got a red Ferrari, I'm a superstar,
I really like to party, am I cool or what?
I love a lot of women, I'm a superstar,
Star's got a freaky living, that's the way we are.

I got a plane (I got a plane)
I love the fame (I love the fame)
You know my name (You know my name)
And I just want you to know.

I am a superstar with a big big house and a big big car,
I am a superstar and I don't care who you are,
I am a superstar with a big big house and a big big car,
I am a superstar and I don't care who you are.

I got fortune, I got fame,
Love it when you say my name.
Love to party, I am naughty,
Prettier than everybody!

I got muscles, I'm a stud,
Jealous people kiss my butt,
I'm so fly I'll make you cry,
Cross my heart and hope to die.

I am a superstar with a big big house and a big big car,
I am a superstar and I don't care who you are,
I am a superstar with a big big house and a big big car,
I am a superstar and I don't care who you are.

I am a superstar with a big big house and a big big car,
I am a superstar and I don't care who you are,
I am a superstar with a big big house and a big big car,
I am a superstar and I don't care who you are."

"SUPERSTAR" ~TOY-BOX IS THE NEW BARBIE GIRL, I'M CONVINCED OF IT.
The girl has that super-cute voice and even the guy has an unnaturally low voice like Ken! :p It's a song you love to hate but it's so catchy...

This made me laugh...

Lovely hairdo x]
L is for Loser.

Out of the blue

2010-02-04T16:30:00.012-05:00

An assortment of my dollies.
Aren't they beautiful?

And finally, a photo of the gorgeous snowfall outside. It's supposed to snow again, from 12 inches to 23 inches. Supposedly... wow!!
Looking forward to a white wonderland weekend [aha, alliteration?].

"When something's pure
How can people just say
We're not meant to be?
And when something's true
How can people just
Keep me away from you?"

~Aly & AJ

OHMYGOSH.
I just found out - no school tomorrow!!!!
Everyone's so scared about the massive snowstorm, aha.
That totally made my day :D

~Quotes~

"It is necessary to the happiness of man that he be mentally faithful to himself. Infidelity does not consist in believing, or in disbelieving; it consists in professing to believe what he does not believe." ~Thomas Paine

"You write to communicate to the hearts and minds of others what's burning inside you. And we edit to let the fire show through the smoke." ~Arthur Plotnik, editor and author

"The pages are still blank, but there is a miraculous feeling of the words being there, written in invisible ink and clamoring to become visible." ~Vladimir Nabokov

Snow day!!

2010-02-03T09:18:00.006-05:00

"Celebrity culture isn't very healthy for young people at all." ~Lily Allen

Click! She's so cute :3

-If...?-

If I were a month, I’d be June

If I were a day of the week, I’d be Wednesday

If I were a time of day, I’d be 9 in the afternoon.

If I were a planet, I’d be Saturn.

If I were a sea animal, I’d be an angelfish.

If I were a direction, I’d be North.

If I were a piece of furniture, I’d be a Victorian chandelier.

If I were a liquid, I’d be lemonade.

If I were a gemstone, I’d be a sapphire.

If I were a tree, I’d be a French birch/maple.

If I were a flower, I’d be a lily.

If I were a kind of weather, I’d be sunny rain [avec l'arc en ciel!].

If I were a musical instrument, I’d be a piano.

If I were a color, I’d be blue.

If I were an emotion, I’d be bliss.

If I were a fruit, I’d be an APPLE!

If I were a sound, I’d be the sound of raindrops falling on your window.

If I were an element, I’d be water.

If I were a car, I’d be a Buggy.

If I were a scent, I’d be a cupcake.

If I were a body part, I’d be the eye.

If I were a facial expression, I’d be the smile :)

If I were a pair of shoes, I’d be goth/rocker boots [Dr. Martens?].

I was inspired by this.
Her blog is gorgeous!

Cardigan weather

2010-01-31T23:01:00.002-05:00

I finally bought a cardigan!!

It's like... ivory-based with blueish and purple streaks in it?

[My apologies for the bad lighting! It makes the colour look weird...]
It's much prettier in person.

Domine Kira

2010-01-30T20:08:00.002-05:00

"Life is my favourite movie. It could be scary or funny." ~my friend's Facebook

Low of Solipsism

2010-01-30T19:42:00.005-05:00

L.

Check out his music, it's nice...
I hope they make it as a band one day!
They should put more original songs on there.

The "happy birthday" at the end of the "You Belong With Me" cover is so sweet.
I just realised who the video was dedicated to......

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Band names:

-J'Aimme [wordplay on "J'aime" with my name... kinda egotistical if we choose this as our band name though... aha]

-Crystalline

I like both. Crystalline is nice, it reminds me of ice and chemicals and glitz =]

And then there's HA-PAH! which includes the initials of everyone in the band, although it left out one member [the D!]... And we'd probably add more and more people, so this wouldn't work out...

Take a vote?
:)

Immanence

2010-01-30T19:34:00.005-05:00

Markus is a cool name.
Markus Zusak.

No. 263 by LittleMissSecret on Polyvore.com

Expelliarimus! by MissWonderlander on Polyvore.com

Nothing to write, so I'm just posting all my recent Polyvore sets here...

I'm so bored that I took a practise SAT today...
I've been putting it off for too long! >.<
I think I'm going to re-watch Alice in Wonderland tonight.

Did you know you can substitute eggs with mashed bananas?!
I wanted to make sugar cookies but realised we didn't have any eggs, so I used bananas instead!
They actually taste really nice.
Sugar cookies with cranberries and peppermint bark on a snowy evening.
Snow is so beautiful!!

Light Lights Up Light

2010-01-30T19:12:00.005-05:00

Yay, I can post again!
For some reason, it kept saying "Bad request" a few days ago and I couldn't log in! >.<

phrases for the young. by MissWonderlander on Polyvore.com

Requiem For Light by MissWonderlander on Polyvore.com

Untitled by MissWonderlander on Polyvore.com

... by MissWonderlander on Polyvore.com

Near by MissWonderlander on Polyvore.com

Drawings & things

2010-01-30T19:03:00.008-05:00

Cute handwriting by my friend and random pages out of my assignment book...

I was bored x]

2010-01-29T11:16:00.002-05:00

No. 266 by LittleMissSecret on Polyvore.com

The final volume of Deathnote...!!
I'm anxious.

And why do I write Deathnote as if it's one word...? Well, I can't stop now.
A teacher workday filled with wasting time!

Super-mini by MissWonderlander on Polyvore.com

Moving into making SUPER-petite sets. Is your eyesight good enough see them?

Take yourself to higher places

2010-01-29T11:12:00.005-05:00

"Tonight my head is spinning
I need something to pick me up
I've tried but nothing is working
I won't stop, I won't say I've had enough

Tonight I start the fire
Tonight I break away

Break away from everybody
Break away from everything
If you can't stand the way this place is
Take yourself to higher places

At night I feel like a vampire
It's not right but I just can't give it up
I'll try to get myself higher
Let's go we're going to light it up

Tonight we start the fire
Tonight we break away

Break away from everybody
Break away from everything
If you can't stand the way this place is
Take yourself to higher places

If you can't stand the way this place is
Take yourself to higher places

Break away from everybody
Break away from everything
If you can't stand the way this place is
Take yourself to higher places

Higher places
To higher places
Higher places
Take yourself to higher places."

[Three Days Grace]

Click.

Song lyrics written on my assignment book by my friend with THE cutest handwriting ever.

2010-01-28T15:53:00.006-05:00

"You're a falling star, you're the get away car.
You're the line in the sand when I go too far.
You're the swimming pool, on an August day.
And you're the perfect thing to say.

And you play it coy but it's kinda cute.
Ah, when you smile at me you know exactly what you do.
Baby don't pretend that you don't know it's true.
'cause you can see it when I look at you.

And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you, you make me sing.
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.

You're a carousel, you're a wishing well,
And you light me up, when you ring my bell.
You're a mystery, you're from outer space,
You're every minute of my everyday."

~Michael Bublé

Ready to take on the world!!!

2010-01-27T20:45:00.002-05:00

2nd place in storytelling [Districts tournament]!
69/70 on an AP US test!

Teacher workdays coming up!
No more stress for awhile!

Met two L's!
Buying a blue wig!

I'm so happy :D

falling down the rabbit hole

2010-01-25T16:53:00.005-05:00

Tis only the first day of the busiest week ever.
Will Friday ever come...?

I wish my brain was a vault in which things could just be magically memorised...
Whoosh!
And it's all in!

The little prince is taunting me....

fail.

[no, i'm not putting a picture from the 'fail blog' or whatever.... and now i'm getting too lazy to capitalise]

Quoi?

2010-01-23T22:32:00.001-05:00

Messed-up Time Cube?

Take these broken wings and learn to f l y

2010-01-23T21:37:00.006-05:00

[The Little Prince cosplay!!! Sooo beautiful... When the little prince discovers on Earth that there are hundreds of roses just like his precious flower. More here: CLICK!]

-Listening to-

1. "L's Theme (A)" ~Deathnote Original Soundtrack [A comment on the video: "I feel smarter just by listening to it!" Lol]
2. "Misa's Theme (A)" ~Deathnote Original Soundtrack [I want to download this... the soundtrack is like $40 for some ridiculous reason- imported from Japan... bleh]
3. "Light's Theme (A)" ~Deathnote Original Soundtrack
4. "Easily" ~Muse
5. "Learning To Breathe" ~Switchfoot
6. "Nineteen" ~Tegan & Sara
7. "Just" ~Radiohead
8. "I Have Nothing" ~Noah and the Whale
9. "Cousins" ~Vampire Weekend
10. "Skeletons" ~Kate Nash

A survey on a blog. Hmm...

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Do you believe in the Mayan prophecy (world ends in 2012)?
Nope...

Looking back, did you ever waste too much time on a someone that treated you bad?
Maybe...

Have you chewed gum after someone else already chewed it?
Nope!

When was the last time you talked to one of your best friends?
Just half a hour ago.

Anything happen to you within the past month that has made you really angry?
Yeeah...

When you and your friends are out and about do you usually get dirty looks?
Not usually, unless we're doing something really weird... :p

Who were you last in a car with other than yourself?
My parents? Actually... people on my bus...

Is it hard for you to get over someone?
Hmm... not that much, although they do appear in my dreams sometimes. When they disappear from my dreams, I'm over them.

We all hate backstabbers, did you experience some lately?
Nope! I have good friends :)

Bet you're missing someone now?
Yeah.

Do you get along with girls?
I'd like to think so!

Have you ever thought about getting your nose pierced?
Not really... piercings are kinda scary.

Do you think you've changed over the past year?
Hmm. People say I haven't...

Are you currently looking forward to anything?
Cosplay!!!! And 4-day weekends. Dreading aLOT of things too though...

Who is the last male you hugged?
Er. I don't usually hug guys...

Have you realized anything recently?
Yeah, that monosodium glutamate is MSG x] The AP chem part of me was like, "Oh look! Chemicals! What's this...? I'll go look it up!" And my dad was like, "Seriously...? It's MSG..." Lol.

How did you meet the last male you texted?
I don't textttt.

What were you doing at 7:45 this morning?
In bed listening to Radiohead

Do you hate it when you go over to someone's house and do absolutely
nothing?
Then you start asking, "What do you want to do?" which leads to your friend asking, "I don't know, what do YOU want to do?" and it's an endless circle. It's kinda amusing.

Do you believe in love?
Yeeah!

Where would you rather live, England or Italy?
Aaaack this is a hard question!! Uuuum....... Paris.... I'd have to go to each place first to check it out! [actually, this is just to avoid the question...]

When someone says "We need to talk", what runs through your mind?
Um, sure...? What are we talking about, exactly?

Are you still friends with the last person who broke your trust?
I can't think of anyone who broke my trust lately...

Has someone ever made you a promise and broke it?
Yeah...

Have you ever ate a bug for money?
Aha, NO.

What was the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?
Listen to music

Do you know anyone with the same middle name as you?
I don't have a middle name!

Think back to five months ago. were you single?
Yeah...?

Do you want your life to stay the way it is right now forever?
No!!

What are you listening to right now?
Nothing.

You think "I love you" are strong words?
Yeah but they're said too much sometimes...

Are promises important to you?
This is a repetitive survey... And yeah.

Whose bed did you last sit on?
My own...

Where's your best guy friend?
At home? Or leaving to go back to school?

Do you believe what goes around comes around?
Sometimes!

Want someone back in your life?
Nope.

Have you ever lost a best friend?
Yeah.

Is there a person of the opposite sex who means a lot to you?
I suppose ;D

Do you believe exes can be friends?
Yeah!

Name one of your friends who is the most like you?
Like me...? JOY!

Who was the first person you talked to today?
My dad.

What were you doing this morning at 7 am?
Sleeping... and I'm certain you already asked this!

Do you think you'll be married in 10 years?
Maybe?

Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
Maybe... maybe they're typing a survey onto their blog too!

Are you a forgiving person?
Yeah, I try!

When was the last time something REALLY made you laugh?
Funny scenes in Deathnote... Ryuk: "If you understand what I'm saying, just shut your mouth and stay quiet."

Are you talkative?
I can be really hyper and never stop talking...!

Has anyone ever given you jewelry on Christmas?
Of course!

Do you think you can last in a relationship for 2 months?
-nods-

Have you ever slept on a couch with someone else?
Yeah. Sleepovers!

Do you think you can love someone and not trust them?
Yeah... but maybe it's not such a good relationship then.

Have you ever kissed a blue-eyed person?
Nope.

Do you go by your first, middle or last name?
First. I'm boring.

They've got a Cheshire Cat grin

2010-01-23T21:32:00.002-05:00

"Just as you take my hand
Just as you write my number down
Just as the drinks arrive
Just as they play your favourite song
As your bad mood disappears
No longer wound up like a spring
Before you've had too much
Come back in focus again

The walls abandon shape
They've got a Cheshire Cat grin
All blurring into one
This place is on a mission
Before the night owl
Before the animal noises
Closed circuit cameras
Before you're comatose

Before you run away from me
Before you're lost between the notes
The beat goes round and round
The beat goes round and round
You never really got me there
I just pretended that I had
Words are blunt instruments
Words are a sawed-off shotgun

Come on and let it out
Come on and let it out
Come on and let it out
Come on and let it out

Before you run away from me
Before you're lost between the notes
Just as you take the mic
Just as you dance, dance, dance

Jigsaw falling into place
There is nothing to explain
You eye each other as you pass
She looks back, you look back
Not just once
Not just twice
Wish away the nightmare
Wish away the nightmare
You've got it on you, can feel it on your back
It on you, can feel it on your back
Jigsaw falling into place ."

It's funny how much more sense Radiohead songs become once you find out the lyrics. My friend made me a Radiohead mix and I listened to it straight through. I really like "Let Down" and "Jigsaw Falling Into Place." It's kinda hard to like them though... some songs I think are brilliant while others are just eeh... It takes awhile. I like their Alice in Wonderland references though! :)

And one day, I'm gonna grow wings. by MissWonderlander on Polyvore.com

Giving Up by MissWonderlander on Polyvore.com

HELP NEEDED!

2010-01-20T22:25:00.004-05:00

HELP NEEDED:

My friend [yeah, the same one who got me addicted to Deathnote] wants me to cosplay as Misa...
can anyone help me find a blonde wig that would be suitable for her?

For reference...

[I can't really find any reeeally ideal pictures of her... those are okay though]

Preferably shoulder-length-ish? I don't understand why some wigs are so long, like waist-length... Misa's hair isn't that long at all!

Thank you :)

P.S. If you can, just post a comment with the link in it.

OHMYGOSH. Are they the cutest Deathnote cosplayers or what?
Say hi to the chibi children...! :3

Musica!

2010-01-20T22:16:00.004-05:00

So I was talking with my friends at my bus stop about how I wanted to make a band called Hyper Overdose, and now they're taking it seriously...
It might actually become a reality...!!
There's this Battle of the Bands thing at school, and just amazingly, a band dropped out at the last minute.
My friend wants me to do something, but really, we don't even know our band name [see, people don't want to call it Hyper Overdose...]! It would be funny if we went, made a mess, and won! Kinda like Muse's success story [it all started with them winning a battle of the bands thing... supposedly they all wore white face paint and goth makeup? And called themselves Rocket Baby Dolls? Ahahaha].

Possible band names we brainstormed... [it's really fun to come up with them... but some are just ridiculous!] Feel free to laugh.

-Wonderland [My idea, of course!]
-The Wonton Experience [Get it? Like the Jimi Hendrix Experience, but not]
-Seizures! On The Dance Floor [parody of Panic! At the Disco]
-Fire Hydrant
-Emergency Exit [We took stuff from our bus as inspiration...]
-Do Not Block
-Pink Hippos [This guy kept on coming up with hippos! :p]
-Knights of the White Camelia [Sounds cool, but it's actually a white supremist group like the KKK after the Civil War... so yeah, bad idea!]
-K.K.K. [Kool Kids Klub. Once again..... bad idea]
-Saturn ["Why don't we name our band after planets?"]
-Pluto ["Oh man, Disney is going to sue us..."]
-The Rolling Squares [Umm.... parody of the Rolling Stones??]

We're weird.

Post better ideas if you have them...

Schadenfreude

2010-01-17T14:18:00.003-05:00

Main Entry: scha·den·freu·de
Pronunciation: \ˈshä-d^ən-ˌfrȯi-də\

Function: noun

Usage: often capitalized

Etymology: German, from Schaden damage + Freude joy

Date: 1895

: enjoyment obtained from the troubles of others

That's the word I've seen before and couldn't remember... basically when your friend gets a bad grade or something, you secretly feel happy about it.

The English language is so odd... but new words can always be invented! Just look at Lewis Carroll for inspiration :)

I like how there seems to be a word for everything!

Well, almost everything.

ED boys

2010-01-17T11:18:00.002-05:00

Very interesting.
I want to watch this...

Lace and things.

2010-01-15T20:32:00.001-05:00

Pure magic, captured in bottles.

A reading list:

-The Perks of Being A Wallflower
-That book on males with anorexia
-A Clockwork Orange
-Deathnote Vol. 6
-The Best Little Girl In The World
-The Book Thief
-Fahrenheit 451

What a beautiful site.
Biodivison, Joy Division...
OHMYGOSH Marie-Antoinette-styled ball gowns... That is my perfect dress right there! This is pretty too... Who has $875.00 to lend me?

Oooh aaah.

C'est vendredi!

2010-01-15T17:02:00.010-05:00

"The most important things are the hardest things to say. They are the things you get ashamed of, because words diminish them - words shrink things that seemed limitless when they were in your head to no more than living size when they’re brought out. But it’s more than that, isn’t it? The most important things lie too close to wherever your secret heart is buried, like landmarks to a treasure your enemies would love to steal away. And you may make revelations that cost you dearly only to have people look at you in a funny way, not understanding what you’ve said at all, or why you thought it was so important that you almost cried while you were saying it. That’s the worst, I think. When the secret stays locked within not for want of a teller, but for want of an understanding ear.”
-Stephen King

(found on www.mypointeofview.blogspot.com)

So I was grocery-shopping with my dad after he picked me up from school and I heard...
"Do do do do do do do do dooooooo-do-do-do..."
Fall Out Boy had been playing in the store and I wished they would play Muse, for some reason
suddenly "Uprising" came on!!
Wow, what a psychic moment.
I was like, "Wow! They're finally getting playing on American radio!" :D
Clicckkkkk... [Plug In Baby literally, aha]

*Songs*

1. "You Wouldn't Like Me" ~Tegan & Sara
2. "Shooting Star" ~Air Traffic
3. "Zero" ~Yeah Yeah Yeahs
4. "Horchata" ~Vampire Weekend
5. "D.A.N.C.E." ~Justice [the animation is soooo cool!]

Looking forward to a 3-day weekend, and "A Raisin In The Sun" duo interpretation for a speech tournament tomorrow!
It's this... nervous anticipation.
Hypnopædia!

So my friend got me into reading manga again, with Deathnote...
I love Light. I wish I was as smart as him! Aha.
I'd like to do a cosplay with me as Misa, and my friends as L and Light... although I don't like to do cosplay unless everything is perfect and you put alot of effort into it! The only other shoot I've done like that was Alice in Wonderland [you know I'm obsessed!]... so. Enjoy other people's cosplays instead? :D

Some AMAZING Deathnote cosplays...
Click N O W.

An awesome Light! The same person also does Alice in Wonderland, The Little Prince, and other manga/book cosplays... I think it's a girl, although she's very androgynous and often plays male characters... [she also has a twin!]

LIGHT. With real wings! [not Photoshopped]

The first cosplay I saw of L, back when I never read the series... I just randomly found this in my DeviantArt favourites! >.<

From the same photoshoot as the Light one.

Misa!! She's so pretty, isn't she? I like her style... it's like, Gothic-Victorian-ish? Her hair looks browner here, but in a different photo, it's reeeally blonde... I should find a pic of all three of them together [they seem like such good friends that way!], but I'm too lazy... It's in the link, anyways.

Oh, here's one...

Yeah, that's about it for now...
Picture posts are fun.
Good night!

It's Blitz!

2010-01-09T22:44:00.002-05:00

Yeah Yeah Yeahs are so good...
I went out and bought all their stuff.
Maybe that's not a good thing... aha.

Neverland

2010-01-08T15:41:00.008-05:00

Hey, it's Alice too! And the Mad Hatter! :D

http://fyeahspielingpeter.tumblr.com/

Tis the guy who plays Peter Pan at Disneyland!

More and more Alice-in-Wonderland-inspired stuff is turning up everywhere!
It's great!

Broken teacups bracelet... made by Tom Binn for Disney Couture.

Preeeetty.... definitely Red Queen inspired!

I'm gonna do me, you do you. You're all a bunch of haters!

2010-01-08T15:07:00.008-05:00

^"Haters" ~Everclear

It spells out "DREAM!" At first I was so distracted by their billowy clothes that I didn't notice x]

[it's from Kanye West's blog: Clicky!] Speaking of Kanye, he's actually on thinkexist.com for his quotes... LOL. This is too funny.

"Now I can let these dream killers kill my self esteem-or use my arrogance as steam to power my dreams!!!"

"In America, they want you to accomplish these great feats, to pull off these David Copperfield-type stunts. You want me to be great, but you don't ever want me to say I'm great?"

“Thank God I'm not too cool for the safebelt.”

"NO!!! I DON'T LIKE THIS!!! PLEASE NOOOO!! AN ASTON IS AN ART PIECE NOT A FAMILY VEHICLE. THE BRAND REPRESENTS THE INTERNATIONAL PLAYBOYS. WHEN DID THEY DECIDE TO GROW UP. I JUST WANNA SEE KOBE JUMP OVER IT, THAT'S ABOUT IT!"

What a funny person!
Aaaanywaysss....

So the weatherpeople have been predicting snow for the entire week, and finally! There was snow today! It's so beautiful...

A two-hour delay! That was the most our school would give us... What a shame. But still, pretty awesome.

I found out that Dorian Gray movie was already out in the U.K. last September!! 9/9/09, to be exact. I HAVE TO WATCH IT.

Now!

Stuff.

2010-01-04T22:29:00.008-05:00

I want so much stuff, but of course most of it's overly expensive :(
I HATE it when the shipping costs more than/almost equal to the actual product!
Seriously!
If companies all had free shipping, consumers would buy alot more!

Pretty things:

Printed Lace Bronte Top (plum) -$58.00

Scandalous Lace Top (ivory) - $48.00

Alice in Wonderland shirt - $24.00 [but shipping is $10.00... ><]

Neon shoelaces

Silver glitter TOMS - $54.00

Tyler Ramsey hand painted TOMS - $68

Adidas & Jeremy Scott JS Wings - $330

OHMYGOSH those are seriously THE best shoes ever!!! I'd feel like Hermes or something with the winged shoes! I can flyyyy!! Ever since I saw them for the first time in NYLON magazine, I've wanted them so badly... But over $300?! I seriously can't afford that... :(

I'd probably have a shopping spree at Free People if I could..... aha.

-Current Obsessions-

1. Pretty camis
2. Lace
3. Free People
4. Online "window"-shopping
5. Earrings! Vintage jewellery!
6. Paris shirts [a t-shirt with an Eiffel Tower/French words on them... I want one!]
7. Band t-shirts, pretty ones.
8. Twiggy
9. The 60s'
10. Neon stuff

I've been trying to find this Muse shirt for ages, but I can't seem to find it... I saw it during the U2 tour, but it was $40.00 and I didn't have enough money [not that I -would- buy it for $40... overpriced much??]. But it was so pretty- it's grey, with a blue Muse logo and a bunch of butterflies... I can't find it anywhere on their website or on Ebay, etc. Maybe it's tour-exclusive or something? Eeh.

Owl City band shirts are pretty...

Make pretend it's 1969 FOREVER

2010-01-03T20:31:00.013-05:00

I love how everyone's blog posts is about 2010.

-I Am-
Listening to: Random indie music...
Reading: New issue of Teen Vogue
Craving: Sleep
Thinking about: "The Stranger" by Albert Camus... I read it at my friend's house while she was at her piano lesson. In 2 hours. Well, it's only 117 pages. It's so... good, actually. The main character reminded me alot of Holden from "The Catcher In The Rye" because he was so... not-caring and passive, kind of just... nonchalant. The book is super-existentialist... Clicky!

-Quotes-

"Let your life be a counter friction to stop the machine."
~Henry David Thoreau [from "Civil Disobedience"]

-Today's Playlist-
"Bad Romance" ~Lady Gaga
"Les Cactus" ~Jacques Dutronc
"Melody" ~Kate Earl
"Poker Face" ~Lady Gaga
"Drive-In Saturday" ~David Bowie
"Mon Enfance" ~Jacques Brel

-Current Obsessions-
1. Interesting books
2. Henry David Thoreau
3. James Franco
4. Flannel pants
5. Sweater leggings [so warm!]
6. Jacques Brel
7. Woodstock Festival, 1969
8. François Hardy
9. "Milk", the movie
10. Comedians

So we went to my best friend's house for a luncheon yesterday, which turned into a dinner party as the adults started playing poker again, which turned into a sleepover as the night dragged on.

But! This sleepover was... DIFFERENT.
Instead of just watching non-stop movies [like we usually do!],
we actually did... educational stuff.
-gasp-
We wrote 2 SAT essays, spent 1 hour on moral dilemmas [they're so thought-provoking and interesting! LOVE them], and then watched "Taking Woodstock", "Alice in Wonderland", and half of "Milk."

I love Michael in "Taking Woodstock," he's so chill and relaxed about everything. Well, he's a hippie. And his main line is, "Oh, it's beeeautiful." or "Yes, I'm sensing good vibes." It's so funny. And the movie ends by him saying "It's beautiful." and Elliott [playing by Demetri Martin!] says, "Beautiful." Exactly how I wanted the movie to end! Yay!
And my friend's favourite line was when they're putting out this white sheet to signal the plane to land there, and Elliott's mum is like, "What are you doing, trying to get Ku Klux Klan here?" or something... it doesn't sound funny, but you should watch the movie. It's actually kind of boring, but it has funny quotes and trippy-psychedelic-ness.

We weren't even planning on sleeping at all, even though we had Church the next morning and would probably fall asleep during the service.
But her mum came in around 4:30 a.m. and took her MacBook! So we couldn't finish watching Milk. Darn!! It was a really good movie, so far. It makes gay couples seem so normal. I mean, not weird at all... And James Franco! :) It's basically about this gay man who runs for office and gets in and tries to get more rights for gay people. They make such a cute gay couple... and it's a real story, too! So yeah, I think I'll finish watching it sometime...teenager who looks like Napoleon Dynamite with curly hair and plastic black glasses and he's like, "That's great for you, but I'm not voting for you, old man!" But later he changes his mind, of course. I wonder who plays him...

I wish we could someday break our record of 5 a.m. and really not sleep!!!
We were SO close.

I can't believe winter break is over.
I really really really don't want to go back to school...
Actually.
Once you get into the flow, it's okay.
It's once you disrupt the flow and take a break, going back is hard...
30% chance of snow tomorrow.
I've got my fingers crossed, but I don't think we'll be so lucky.
Even if we get snow, the school board are meanies.

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2009-12-29T12:54:00.022-05:00

esprit de corps

MEANING:

noun: A spirit of solidarity; a sense of pride, devotion, and honor among the members of a group.

ETYMOLOGY:

From French esprit (spirit), de (of), corps (body, group).

I love French words.
So, 1st post of the New Year!
You have been warned: it's quite long...

-I Am-

Listening To: Nothing at the moment
Reading: "Civil Disobedience" ~Henry David Thoreau
Craving: Oranges
Thinking About: It's NEW YEAR'S!!

-Quotes-

"When I was in the military, they gave me a medal for killing two men and a discharge for loving one." ~Leonard Matlovich, a gay Vietnam Veteran

"Commandment Number One for any truly civilized society is this: Let people be different." ~David Grayson, journalist/author

Those are "A Thought For Today" quotes from my A.Word.A.Day subscriptions... I was always so preoccupied with the vocab words that I never saw the quotes! They're pretty inspirational...

-Today's Playlist-

"Simple And Clean" ~Utada
"Cross Your Fingers" ~Laura Marling [I love her!!]
"Hair" ~The Early November
"Sushi" ~Kyle Andrews
"Pumpkin Soup" ~Kate Nash
"Breathe Me" ~Sia
"That Green Gentleman (Things Have Changed)" ~Panic At The Disco
"I Belong To You (+Mon cœur s'ouvre à ta voix)" ~Muse
"Time & Confusion" ~Anberlin
"Konstatine" ~Something Corporate

-Current Obsessions-

Finishing my collage for HSD [High School Diplomats]
Mini-sets and surreal sets on Polyvore
PeterPan-Syndrome on DeviantArt
[Clicky!]
Old Seventeen magazines
Layering clothes
Winter break... it's almost over :(
Alice in Wonderland t-shirts
Muffins
My black sparkly Converses
New Year's! 2010!

-Thoughts-

I remember when I was so fascinated by how Matt traced veins on his arms...
Aha.

So yesterday we went to a New Year Eve's party, like every other year. I wish I could've gone to see fireworks, or something. I really want to be in Times Square to see the ball drop sometime in my life! At first I felt really awkward 'cause all the girls seemed to know each other and they were all much younger than me... but then I started talking to this girl who seemed like a bit of a loner and thus our adventures began. Like the other girls were talking about their boyfriends and crushes and school drama, and I thought they must be in middle school or something. BUT. It turns out they're only 5th and 6th graders!!! What?! :O Wow, I was kinda shocked there. I can't believe people have so much relationship drama stuff in 6th grade... I used to think 10 years old is really old though. I guess I still do. The girl I was talking to was 11, and she's a HUGE Panic At The Disco and Fall Out Boy fan. Everyone else was wearing Abercrombie and skinny jeans, and I might've spotted some makeup... On 6th grade girls. I don't really like girls wearing makeup that young, it's like... you don't need it! Goodness. And they all had high-tech phones, and everyone had an iTouch. Wow.... a few girls were just texting and going on Facebook the whole time. It's like, "You can do that at home... you're at a party, have fun?" Um... yeah. So the girl showed me some YouTube videos. Happy Tree Friends [thank goodness, no Salad Fingers... he's creeeeepy >.<], Fall Out Boy stuff, "Draw With Me" [sooo good.... it's an animation about this boy and girl who are separated by a glass wall -----> Clicky!] And then my mum walked in on us while she was showing me "Hollywood Whore" ~Papa Roach, there was blood everywhere in the video and it was embarrassing... aha.

So the girl whose house we were at turned 11! And her friends are soooo loud... just like screaming and making funny noises for no reason! So yeah, so me and the loner girl started walking around 'cause we didn't have anything better to do [everyone else went to the same school and were gossiping]. And we kept on bumping into this guy who was also walking around... turns out he's a freshman in high school. But he was playing table hockey with this really petite Korean girl and getting beat up by her, it was so funny x) She is vicious! And we were blasting music on people's iPods really loudly, except "Viva La Vida" kept on playing on repeat about 20 times... Eeeeeh. I got so tired of that song by the end of the night! So I put my iPod in and the guy wanted to listen to rap and rock stuff, so we were playing Green Day and stuff...

Then we watched the ball drop [it's only like 30 seconds of excitement...] and the adults started the longest poker game ever. I think there should be a Guiness World record for it or something. And everyone left except this small Chinese girl with pigtails and this really hyper, energetic Whasian girl. She's so funny. And people started drifting off to sleep but me and Claire [the Whasian girl] were determined not to [I can't anyway, I'm not sleeping over!]. So we started performing "Bohemian Rhapsody" like a drama, with all the funny voices and motions and stuff.... we were so loud that I don't think the other girls could sleep! Mission accomplished, aha. And then we started talking about her sisters who go to TJ [BOTH of them!] and philosophy, and how she writes poetry... She is so mature for a 10-year old... I never would have thought. So she was like, "I have a 3rd person voice, a fantasy voice, a poetry voice, and stuff..." So we actually had a pretty good conversation. Her older sister is so talented, by the way. Like wow... her voice, and she's so pretty! But yeah, and she was saying how guys at TJ try to outdo each other with asking girls to prom. She said her sister's boyfriend drove to TJ at midnight to put up a banner asking her to prom! Lol. Those kids :p And we started playing the Questions game, and talked about if we were guys, about how she thought roses were the perfect flower of love [she is SO metaphorical and was talking in poetry talk the whole time...] and we didn't fall asleep! It's so interesting to see different sides of people. Like before, she was SOOOO hyper [I really got scared] and she was mad 'cause she didn't save her top score on a game, and she started punching pillows and cursing and stuff. But then in that room, at like 3 in the morning, she was so thoughtful and philosophical... it's really a different, quiet side...

When my parents -finally- finished playing cards, it was 4:30 a.m.
I didn't sleep at all.
Happy 2010 everyone! :D

Make a wish! :D
[I actually stayed up until 11:11 p.m. to take this!]

We'll Meet Again

2009-12-28T21:43:00.007-05:00

Copying the format of posts on http://www.mypointeofview.blogspot.com/
Her blog is so wonderful to read and she is such a lovely person. I'd love to meet Amy in real life... [we have the same name!]

-I Am-

Listening To: "Born For This" ~Paramore
Reading: The Life And Many Deaths Of Harry Houdini ~Ruth Brandon
Craving: Ice cream
Thinking About: How to spend the rest of winter break...

-Quotes-

"Whatever it is I am getting old and yet I have no particular regrets. Some time or another we all grow tired. I have been tired for a long time." ~Harry Houdini

"Time enjoyed wasting, was not wasted." ~John Lennon

-Today's Playlist-

"Hell" ~Tegan & Sara
"Adalia" ~Madina Lake
"Hear Me" ~Kelly Clarkson
"Bleeding Love" ~Mark & Alex [cover of Leona Lewis]
"Decipher Reflections From Reality" ~PlayRadioPlay!
"Accidntel Deth" ~Rilo Kiley
"Starlight" ~Muse
"Northshore" ~Tegan & Sara
"Nobody Knows Me At All" ~The Weepies
"Last Day Of Magic" ~The Kills

-Current Obsessions-

Free People clothing
Sweater dresses
Harry Houdini
Thoughtful quotes
Molly Ringwald
Vintage/retro fashion
Paramore
333bracket on DeviantArt
[her stuff is AMAZING! Clicky!]
Inspiring photography
Distressed/ripped jeans
Sleeping in
Cardigans
[I really really want to get one!]

-Thoughts-

Winter break is really flying by, although I've kind of settled into doing nothing productive and everything to waste it, it seems. I have the 1985 version of Alice in Wonderland next to me, as well as Marie Antoinette... I'm inclined to watch both of them now. I actually haven't had the time to finish the second half [yes, Alice Through The Looking Glass!] of the movie, so I really should... And I'm already dreaming of the beautiful Victorian costumes in Marie Antoinette. Speaking of which, the Miss Dior Chérie ad is probably one of the most beautiful ads ever made!!
[Clicky]

That embodies everything I'd want in a commericial!
Parisian, pretty colours, gorgeous scenery, balloons...

Anyways, good night for now!
Looking forward to more boredom tomorrow...
I think I'll bake some oatmeal-white-chocolate-chip-cranberry cookies.
:D

My misery is so addictive

2009-12-27T20:46:00.005-05:00

"Don't bend
Don't blink
Don't beg
Don't scream
Don't whine
Don't fight
Don't tell me, don't tell me, don't tell me

Don't feel
Don't tear
Don't kiss
Don't care
Don't touch
Don't want me, don't want me, don't want me

Something's so sick about this
My misery is so addictive
I'm halfway there with your Northshore from the floor singing to you over my shoulder

Don't run
Don't hide
Don't hurt
Don't lie
Don't breathe
Don't try
Don't find me, don't find me, don't find me

Don't cringe
Don't clench
Don't look
Don't flinch
Don't know
Don't go
Don't leave me, don't leave me, don't leave me

Something's so sick about this
My misery is so addictive
I'm halfway there with your Northshore from the floor singing to you over my shoulder

Don't sing
Don't talk
Don't yell
Don't laugh
Don't think
Don't speak
Don't save me, don't save me, don't save me

Don't stay
Don't plan
Don't heal
Don't mend
Don't take
Don't send
Don't love me, don't love me, don't love me

Something's so sick about this
My misery is so addictive
I'm halfway there with your Northshore from the floor singing to you over my shoulder."

"Northshore" ~Tegan & Sara [they're twins!!]

I've been looking at amazing photographers on DeviantArt [haven't checked there for the loooongest time...] and really nice fashion blogs...

Talk to me... I don't want the time to waste away and find myself a week later, winter break gone by, with nothing accomplished...

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

2009-12-25T09:22:00.002-05:00

December 25.
Today...
...is Christmas!!

We just finished opening presents, and I was really surprised by all the stuff.
I think this year is more like... alot of small gifts making up a big one?
Like last year and the year before I got really big gifts, like an iPod or something.

I wish everyone a happy Christmas!!! :)

Music binge!

2009-12-23T10:43:00.007-05:00

Some of the stuff I listened to today:

-Shirobon!
-Unicorn Kid
-Bubblegum Octopus
-Amy Can Flyy
-That Boy That Girl ~Hadouken!
-Say Please ~Monsters of Folk
-Meet Me On The Equinox ~Death Cab For Cutie
-I Belong To You ~Muse [New Moon remix]
-1-800-Zombie
-Baby, Better Believe ~Breathe Electric
-Oceans ~Racing Kites
-Love Love, Kiss Kiss ~Alkaline Trio
-Neon Lights ~Hurry! Let's Go
-Uptown, Get Around ~Stereo Skyline
-Techicolour Eyes ~Backseat Goodbye
-What You Waiting For? ~Franz Ferdinand [Gwen Stefani cover]
-Love Game ~Lady Gaga & Marilyn Manson remix [lol, wow...]
-Sunset 1989 ~Swimming With Dolphins

Weird band names much?

Some of these are actually good, some are just... beep-beep-beep video-game Mario music! Aha. :D

The Japanese are awesome

2009-12-21T18:01:00.004-05:00

OHMYGOSH.
The cutest bentos ever :D
Clicky!

HAPPY SEVENTEENTH!

2009-12-21T07:32:00.005-05:00

Happy birthday dear!!!
It's the first day of winter but of course, it's also your birthday :D
So now we're on the same level of oldness now, sorta?
I don't think you actually -feel- 17 until like... a year later though.

I hope you're doing something fun and that there will miraculously be snow!
If you were here, I'd probably bake some cupcakes for the occasion... aha.
Maybe you could eat some ice cream, 'cause it's never too cold for ice cream, right?
Supposedly there's bacon-and-eggs flavoured ice cream..... -pukes-
You have to teach me how to make ice cream from scratch someday. It sounds magical!

So I guess you're not "sweet 16" anymore but you know that song from "Sound of Music?" The "Sixteen Going On Seventeen" one! "I am sixteen, going on seventeen/I know that I'm naive/Bachelor dandies/Drinkers of brandies/What do I know of those?"

I wish you could see your present now, because I -think- you might like it, but you'll have to wait until your dad gets back...
La di la....
So I hope you know that you're a really amazing person, and that you're brilliant in every way... [Art- check. Writing- check. SAT-smart- check.]
Don't ever think you're not because that isn't true at all!
"And tonight we can truly say... together we're invincible!"
I had a dream yesterday that I was in a chatroom with some people and Joy or something, and she was like, "It's 8/3! Do you know why it's a special day?" and I was like, "Uuuh, no...." And Joy says, "It's been a year since the Yeos left!" and yeah, so maybe time goes by faster than we think?

I'm really happy that we can still talk and stuff despite how we're halfway across the world from each other...
It's at times like these that make me wonder at the invention of the Internet and telephones.
You, me,
we can be invincible FOREVER!
Made for you: http://www.polyvore.com/happy_birthday/set?id=14462753

ily ♥

Sincerely,
just a ghost :)

But last night was wild!

2009-12-20T20:08:00.003-05:00

^"Ulysses" ~Franz Ferdinand

Mr. Snowman that me and my friend built during the last snowfall...

Today was a lovely day filled with madness!!
First of all- NO SCHOOL NEXT WEEK!!!!
So winter break officially starts!!
Which is the way it should be!
And then we went Christmas shopping despite all the snow and ice...
There are miniature snow mountains everywhere, and the whiteness is so beautiful.
Except some of it turned to slush and some of the pureness is defiled by the dirt and is now an icky brown... bleh.
It kinda spoils the fun when you already know what all your Christmas gifts areee.... >.<

I think losing weight is such a funny concept.
Weight is defined as "the force that must be applied to an object in order to support it in a gravitational field." (Wikipedia)
So we're trying to lessen the hold of gravity on our bodies...? Aha x)
More like losing body mass...

Tomorrow is the first day of winter and also someone's birthday!! ;D

Ice Queen, c'est moi.

2009-12-14T16:32:00.006-05:00

Every school day before winter break seems to never end...
I'm sick of tests and homework.
I just want to wear my tie-dye shirt and Muse necklace while freezing because I'm always always cold...
Who else wants to see "The Princess and the Frog"?
I'm anticipating a massive baking fest this weekend, 'cause the holidays are coming...
Winter is here.

"I'm tired of everyone I know,
of everyone I see
on the street
and on TV.

On the other side,
on the other side
nobody's waiting for me.
On the other side

I hate them all.
I hate them all.
I hate myself for hating them,
so I'll drink some more.
I love them all.
I'll drink even more.
I'll hate them even more
than I did before.

On the other side,
on the other side
nobody's waiting for me.
On the other side.

I remember when you came,
you taught me how to sing.
Now, it's seems so far away.
You taught me how to sing...

I'm tired of being so judgemental
of everyone
I will not go to sleep.
I will train my eyes to see
that my mind is as blind
as a branch on a tree.

On the other side,
on the other side.
I know what's waiting for me.
On the other side.
On the other side,
on the other side
I know you're waiting for me.
On the other side."

"On The Other Side" ~The Strokes
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=66FFScgTOcQ

"Now it's three in the morning and
You're eating alone

Oh the heart beats in its cage

All our friends they're laughing at us
All of those you loved, you mistrust
Help me, I'm just not quite myself
Look around there's no one else left
I went to the concert and I fought through the crowd
Guess I got too excited when I thought you were around..."

"Heart In A Cage" ~The Strokes
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cbRe5mxR0q0

Un, deux, trois, GO!

2009-12-11T19:47:00.004-05:00

^TWIGGY!! :D I love her.

So.
I have started a new blog asides from A Cheshire Smile.

It's totally unknown and secret, unless you somehow find the link... :p
I feel like it's kind of an online journal [since I'm sometimes too lazy to write everything down in my paper journal], and it's mostly for venting and ranting about random and depressing stuff...
Please don't ask to see it, but the title is based on one of my post titles here...
...if anyone is that interested.

It's funny how something can exist on the Internet, open for everyone to see, yet it's totally obscure unless you find it?

I love that.
That's what StumbleUpon is for!

Top 10 List

2009-12-09T19:09:00.009-05:00

Top 10!

{complete with pictures!}

1. "Wasted" performance

2. Supersize vs Superskinny [I found some episodes through Google video!!] :D

3. Red nail polish

4. Snow

5. Winter break!!

6. Afternoons on my crazy bus...

7. Harry Houdini

8. Eating disorder books

9. 'The Kite Runner" ~ Khaled Hosseini

10. Sour Patch Kids

Anarchy in the U.K.

2009-12-08T16:36:00.002-05:00

Oh how I wish I lived in the UK!!!!
I've discovered such a cool show today called Supersize vs Superskinny, this British TV programme...
But you can only watch the episodes in the UK! :(
It looks like such a good show!!
And iTunes UK doesn't work either unless you're living there...
Let's all move to London, hmm?

SNOW!!!

2009-12-05T10:59:00.002-05:00

It's finally snowing!!!!!!
Like, white flurries and drops of magicness! :D
Yes yes yes!
I hope it continues to snow tomorrow so we can get out of school!

And I have a grand plan to bake 110 cupcakes to make a periodic table of cupcakes.
I may need some help.

http://www.wired.com/geekdad/2009/12/the-periodic-table-in-cupcake-form/
Isn't that AWESOME?!
I think I'm doing mine based on the different groups [alkali metals, noble gas, alkali earth, etc.] so there's a greater variety of pretty colours!

Whoa, squares!

Hoping for snow?

2009-12-04T21:50:00.005-05:00

AP chem today seemed to drag on and on and on, and the clock seemed to be frozen in time...

I feel like everything is so close, yet so distant and faraway from me...
Winter break, Christmas, friends, tests...

By the way, check out this guy (yes, GUY!)'s Polyvore.

http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/profile?id=959146

He's pretty cool!

It's supposed to snow this weekend!!!!!! Let's do the snow dance, flush ice cubes down the toilet, and wear our pajamas inside out! [well, I only do the pajamas thing]

"Tomorrow night: Snow in the evening will give way to partly cloudy conditions overnight. Low around 30F. Winds NW at 10 to 20 mph. Chance of snow 90%. 1 to 2 inches of snow expected." -the latest from Yahoo! weather

Rain & Radiohead

2009-11-30T21:26:00.006-05:00

Today seems to drag on and on and all my classes seemed so long...............
But it was a good day, still.

In the afternoon, it started pouring and I stayed afterschool with no umbrella.
But after "dancing" in the rain for awhile, my friend lent me his.
And today's filled with nice things like that.
Like I let my friend borrow my MIKA cd {which is all broken and in terrible shape}, and he returned a brand new cd to me!!
I seriously thought he was a magician for a second 'cause the cd was so beautiful and not-broken!
But no, he went out and bought a NEW cd! Isn't that nice?
And also I got a Radiohead CD :D
Too bad I need to look up all the lyrics 'cause I have NO idea what Thom Yorke is singing...
It's funny 'cause AFTER you look up the lyrics, you're like, "Oh, that's so obvious, of course that's what he is singing!" Mental-set? Psychology terminology...
I really like the second song but I don't know what song it is 'cause there's no track listing!!!
I foresee a music binge......

Sunshine, 2:40 pm

2009-11-29T14:24:00.004-05:00

^My rainbow stripey sockssss

Thanksgiving break is so short... we should adopt a school system where we had a week of break every other week.

So I had to read some Hawthorne stuff for English, one of the essays being "The Birthmark." It's about this beautiful woman named Georginia who is almost perfect... except she has a tiny hand-shaped birthmark on her face. While some people find it attractive, her husband Aylmer resents it. Aylmer is a scientist and wants to remove the birthmark, so he works in his laboratory for days to produce a potion for her. And at the end [of course it's gonna be depressing], Georginia drinks the potion and her birthmark fades! You'd think, "Yay, all's well that ends well", right? Aylmer is absolutely estatic because he'd finally achieved this feat [and the potion is also like the Elixir of Immorality], but then Georginia dies because the birthmark is like... connecting her spirit to her almost-perfect body? And she dies at the end.

Yesterday my friends came over and we played Monopoly for about 3 hours straight. Too bad my friend started monopolising everything [I FINALLY understand why it's called Monopoly; you're supposed to buy all the properties and have a monopoly on the utilies, railroads, etc!!!] and owned a whole side of the board, complete with little hotels. Making us all go bankrupt, basically! But then Amy and I [aha, the Amy side of the board] formed an alliance to own an entire side too! And now I can't stop calling "Boardwalk" Broadway, 'cause my friend kept saying that... now that space is covered with glitter and pizazz!

Fun, fun.
First time ever this Thanksgiving, we all woke up at 4:30 am to go Black Friday shopping.
It's ridiculous[ly fun!].
Like you're driving when everything's dark and then you're so hyper 'cause you barely slept but it's so exciting anyways!

I finally found a box of brand-new crayons that I think I'll use to make rainbow crayon cupcakes or something :D

I really want to write something, or make something amazing but I have no ideas...
High School Diplomats applications are due JANUARY 7, and I have no ideas on what to draw for my collage!!!!!!
I feel like I've lost all my drawing skills, I only make doodles and stuff now...
Or.
Maybe I can make an altered book, like the Alice in Wonderland one.
I wish I was in Art 3.

Disregard this.

2009-11-18T22:45:00.006-05:00

-start rant-

Why must some people be skinnier than others?
Why must some people have really slim upper bodies but curvier lower bodies?
Or vice versa (is "vice versa" Latin, by the way...?)
It's just so disproportional!
And anorexia videos are so so sad, especially combined with really moving music.
It can really make you cry.
Have you ever felt like you could just eat and eat and eat and you're not even hungry?
Like a music binge or chat binge, but instead it's a food binge?
You're just bored, or rummaging around your kitchen for anything, something, but there's nothing good to eat anyway.
And after you eat something salty, you have to counter-balance it with something sweet, to neutralise it, so you just end up eating more and it's a cycle and you start to wonder, "Well, what if I just threw up?"
But then the thought of sticking your fingers down your throat and puking seems too gross and revolting to actually do, and that would probably mark you as a bulimic, so you don't.
And then you heat up that disgusting Campbell's Condensed Soup with Spongebob Squarepants noodles in it, but you add too much water and then dump it down the drain, but place the dirty bowl in the sink so it would look like you ate it, but you really didn't.
So this post basically has alot of run-on sentences and bad grammar and whatnot, but who cares?
It's hard being a grammar&spelling Nazi.
So you're walking home from school, really determined that you're just going to WORK when you get home. On homework.
And so you do, but then you're supposed to be working on debate speeches and researching topics.
Instead, you go on Polyvore and make a whole bunch of secret sets and favourite everybody's stuff and also chat with people.
But finally you focus and manage to write a few outlines. Whew.
So after dinner, you call your best friend and you can talk about anything, and you start talking about pregnancy, and teen pregnancy and you feel so bad for those teen mums with a kid...
Put them up for adoption, keep it, or... -gasp- Shall I say abortion?
Of course not the latter, but your friend thinks so.
And adoption instead of having kids in the future because she doesn't want to pass her skin disease to her kids... that's probably for the best.
Somehow the conversation moves to how there are mice in your friend's house and how she hate mice, she wants to kill them all viciously.
And creepy Edgar Allan Poe stories, disappearing lineages, and incest.
"Do you realise that if everyone just adopted kids, your lineage/family would disppear?"
What if you're dying to see what's it's like to be an anoretic, even though you know everything about the disease and that it's really self-destructing?
What if you feel like your brain's going to explode with all the things you have to do?
What if you hate looking at yourself because you look weird...?
What if you're nervous about finally going back into debate and giving speeches in front of 20-30 people again?
What if your friend's boyfriend just gave her a dozen roses, and he's usually a really pessimistic, cynical guy? It's just so nauseatingly cute and then you want to pretend it never happened 'cause you can't imagine someone like that doing something so romantic and... nice.
What if you're really hoping for a special visit?
What if you see people hugging and holding hands and wish they'd realise how lucky they are that they're together, right there? Not separated by miles and miles or oceans? :p
What if you feel like you're leading a double life occasionally, with being happy at school but then so messed-up and having dangerous thoughts when you're alone? "Thoughtcrime IS death."
What if you sneaked the phone out of the house to call someone, but then you realise that your dad might be starting a telephone conference so you can't use the phone?
What if...............................................?

-end rant-

I want her hair.

Animal Farm

2009-11-15T08:48:00.003-05:00

...is so sad!

At first I thought it was really amusing how the animals talked, and the pigs are the most intelligent... And also it's so similar to the ideology of 1984 with "Comrade" and the whole erasing/altering of the past.

But it's so tragic!
The whole time I was just so anxious because I knew it was going to become worse, it can't be all happy-utopia-ish like it was in the beginning! :(

Then I found out it was criticising the Stalin era prior to WWII, and that makes alot of sense, I guess. At first there's two main leaders, (pigs) Snowball and Napoleon, but then Napoleon says Snowball is a traitor and they begin turning more and more into humans and changing all the commandments they had at the beginning.

Back to anorexia books.
"Wasted" is really good.

HEY.
Do you know any bands with 7 people, pop/rock genre, on tour right now? :D
If you have any guesses at all, please tell meeeee!!

I'm thinking about you, in my secret language.

2009-11-13T22:02:00.004-05:00

"My British Tour Diary" ~Of Montreal

"On our trip to England I noticed something obscene
People still actually give a shit about the Queen
Though London girls aren't snobs at all
And Brighton's lovely in the fall
Left alone to drive ourselves on the opposite side
Man, it was a miracle that nobody died
Hanging out with Steven, Drew, Theo, Paul, and Sorrel, too
Eating at Welcome Breaks daily
We danced in Leeds with Brit Pop Haley

Performing with the Apples
And then crashing at the Wrights
Bitching because Steven booked us
On such early flights
Always in a foggy haze
Because we hadn't slept for days
Every single one of our London cabbies played
The most truly repellent techno music ever made
But they'll drop you without hesitation
If you try changing the station

Up to our necks in crisps and litter
In the van we dubbed the Gary Glitter ."

"Heimdalsgate Like a Promethean Curse" ~Of Montreal

This reminds me so much of psychology, and all the chemicals in your brain! :D Also, my AP psych teacher -would- probably play this since his favourite band is Of Montreal. The do do do do part makes me smile! And want to dance (although I really can't).

"I'm in a crisis
I need help
Come on mood shift, shift back to good again
Come on mood shift, shift back to good again
Come on, be a friend

Nina Twin is trying to help, and I
Really hope that she succeeds
Though I picked the thorny path myself
I'm afraid, afraid of where it leads

Chemicals, don't strangle my pen
Chemicals, don't make me sick again
I'm always so dubious of your intent
Like I can't afford to replace what you've spent

Nina Twin is trying to help, and I
Really hope she gets me straight
Because my own inner cosmology
Has become too dense to navigate

I'm in a crisis
I need help
Come on mood shift, shift back to good again
Come on mood shift, shift back to good again
Come on, be a friend

Chemicals, don't flatten my mind
Chemicals, don't mess me up this time
Know you bait me way more than you should
And it's just like you to hurt me when I'm feeling good

Come on chemicals."

Goodnight.
And on a completely random note, I FINALLY figured out how to pronounce "Nietzsche!"
:D

Sattelighte.
Catts and myce.

(An old picture taken at a photo shoot with my friend; I think we were trying to capture a shot with the spider web... hmm!)

"WAIT. They don't love you like I love you."

2009-11-13T21:49:00.003-05:00

It's TWLOHA Day! (To Write Love On Her Arms Day)
Cat was the only one who did, I don't think alot of people remembered...
http://www.twloha.com/index.php
I want a t-shirt like that :3

Being immersed in a world of crazy talking animals (Animal Farm),
Panicking over how to be a good presiding officer for debate,
Figuring out how the heck to do the physics & AP chem webassign,
Listening to Noah and the Whale/The Yeah Yeah Yeahs,
Daydreaming about Thanksgiving break,
Hoping for a surprise visit [fingers crossed!],
Maybe I'm actually starting to like square brackets,
And looking forward to "secret phone calls."
Perhaps.
Maybe?

Yes; yes; definitely.
Today was pretty good for Friday the 13th.
But then again I'm not too superstitious x)

Let the wild rumpus start!!

2009-11-05T19:10:00.014-05:00

I listened to the entire Origin of Symmetry album today. Straight-through. Gaaah my brain hurts... although it's Muse. It's too much, all at once!! I made it all the way through... I had to skip to the end of "Micro Cuts" though...

EDIT: After listening through about 4x and looking up the lyrics to several songs (I can't understand anything Matt is saying in Micro Cuts), I think it's quite a nice album now... Even "Micro Cuts." It's much better when you find out the lyrical content and what the song's actually about! :p It's alot darker and aLOT of distortion and stuff...I like "Citizen Erased"... :)

"For one moment
I wish you'd hold your stage
With no feelings at all
Open minded
I'm sure I used to be so free."

"Screenager" ~Muse

"Who's so phony and always surrounded
Stop your screaming, no one can hear
All the scars on your skin, post no bills

Who you were
Was so beautiful
Remember who... who you were

Hide from the mirror, the cracks and the memories
Hide from your family, they won't know you now
For all the holes in our souls host no thrills

Who you were
Was so beautiful
Memories who... who you were."

The intro is really creepy. Joy showed me this song awhile back. It's quite sad and beautiful...

On a different note, I LOVE the Where The Wild Things Are soundtrack!! So so good. I must see the movie.

"1, 2 ready, go!!
Grow some big feet, holes in history

Is where you'll find me, is where you'll find
All is Love, is love, is love, is love

L.O.V.E, it's a mystery
Where you’ll find me, where you’ll find
All is love, is love, is love, is love."

Dying to be thin

2009-11-04T16:56:00.011-05:00

WARNING: There's one "disturbing" photo at the end... you've been warned!

(

^I want to see the documentary soooo badly...!!!)

(One of my favourites!!)

Main Entry: an·orex·ia
Pronunciation: \ˌa-nə-ˈrek-sē-ə, -ˈrek-shə\

Function: noun

Etymology: New Latin, from Greek, from a- + orexis appetite, from oregein

Date: 1598

1 : loss of appetite especially when prolonged
2 : anorexia nervosa

Back into a binge of anorexia and eating disorder books.
It's addictive, really.
Once you start, it's like down the rabbit hole, and you can't stop.
By the way, Alice is popping up everywhere! I love it.
I watched Phoebe in Wonderland recently, and right from the beginning I knew I was going to LOVE it. It can only be compared to Marie Antoinette in terms of prettyness :D
So in "Wasted" (this biography of an anorexic), the author clips in quotes from Alice in Wonderland. It's quite good so far, and I think it's supposed to be the quintessential anorexia biography book? Ish?

Music playing in my world...

["Your Song" ~Moulin Rouge soundtrack
"All Is Love" ~Where The Wild Things Are soundtrack
"Courage" and "Beauty From Pain" ~Superchick
"First Days Of Spring" ~Noah and the Whale
"Fix You" ~Coldplay (I've been listening to alot of their old stuff... it's quite good.]

I don't know why, but the more I find out about eating disorders, the more I want to try it (my friend says that sounds like trying drugs...). Kind of kidding, of course. But do you ever feel so... self-conscious while reading eating disorder books? I love them anyway... I certainly know eating disorders are very harmful and dangerous, and seriously kills people... Very seriouse mental disorder, anyways. I feel like I'm been researching them since forever (I started in middle school) and know alot about them, but there's always more to read/discover. But... well, I have two anorexics-in-training (jk! they're just naturally skinny!). It annoys me when people call me anorexic though, because I'm obviously NOT. It's easy to neglect eating sometimes, yeaaah...?

Do you ever feel fat?

^From a video campaign against eating disorders... it's quite sad. I have it under my YouTube favourites, I think...

Never shout never!

2009-10-27T20:02:00.007-04:00

^That's a good band name :)

-Secret No. 166 on Polyvore!
-Skype is pretty exciting... my dad and I were talking while sitting right next to each other x)
-Finally got an AIM (after much persuasion by Cat...)
-I want to sit on rooftops.
-Movies I want to see: Spirited Away, Where The Wild Things Are, Cloudy With A Chance Of Meatballs... perhaps over the weekend?
-Getting introduced to epik high :p

So I was talking to my friend, and she was like, "Wow, I didn't know you were going out with _____. It's not official until it's on Facebook!" I was like... "Really? Really?" I mean.... I don't know. If it's on Facebook, it should be a mutual thing... That would be publicising alot, but... I guess it doesn't really matter? Except maybe Church people will think it's odd, but maybe some "secrets" are meant to be told :p

...so!

I can't wait for the 4-day weekend! But... I'm sick. Uuugh :( Well... like, my nose isn't really runny, but my throat hurts. -sad face-
-waffle breakfast day during pre-calc (and rainbow cupcakes!) My teacher used to be a chef...!! -jealous-
-"La Belle et La Bête" in French, and regional French foods... mmm. Apple tarts!
-corn maze
-Family Fun Night
-playing LittleBigPlanet: Alice in Wonderland levels
-movie marathon... hopefully
+alot of AP chem lab stuff x)

Please reply if you have an opinion...? :)

Just meet me up in paradise

2009-10-18T15:01:00.011-04:00

^An amazing photo of my friend - the rainbowness is actually a reflection of a CD! :D

"So let me show you
Some-thing super beautiful
Let's rock the boat
The magic is unstoppable!"

-Playlist-

1. "Tell Yourself" ~Clazziquoi
2. "Cheated Hearts" ~ Yeah Yeah Yeahs
3. "On The Bus Mall" ~The Decemberists
4. "Beautiful Day" ~U2
5. "Boston" ~Augustana
6. "Don't Stop Believin'" ~Glee cast version (they make everything sound so good!!)
7. "Les Bonbons" ~Jacques Brel
8. "Don't Upset The Rhythm (Go Baby Go)" ~Noisettes
9. "Wonderwall" ~Oasis
10. "Keep Holding On" ~Glee cast version

Such a cool video ----> Clicky!

-Quote-

Growing up...

Our best friend becomes your enemy. Lollipops turn into cigarettes. The innocent ones turn into sluts. Homework goes in the trash. Mobile phones are being used in class. Detention becomes suspension. Soda becomes vodka. Undies turn into g-strings. Kisses turn into sex. Remember when high meant swinging on the playground? when protection meant wearing a helmet? when the worst thing you could get from boys was cooties? Dad's shoulders were the highest place on earth and Mom was your hero? Your worst enemies were your siblings. Race issues were about who ran the fastest. War was only a card game. The only drug you knew was cough medicine. Wearing a skirt didn't make you a slut. The only things that hurt you were skinned knees. And goodbyes only meant until tomorrow, and we couldn't wait to grow up?

Taken from a Polyvore set -----> Clicky!

Rainbow cake-in-a-jar I made awhile back! It was really difficult and quite violent to get out... Lol. But ever since I made them once for school, this guy at my bus stop has been begging me to make them... I'm like, "It's just food colouring!" x)

-Random thoughts-

Blogging is kind of boring... But I don't have any new secrets on Polyvore at the moment. I need to start getting better grades in school 'cause they are quite atrocious... I have to write a paper about nerds for AP Lang, which sounds fun :D

The weather is ridiculously cold, and I need to buy new clothes... school is stressful and it's the almost last week of 1st quarter!!!! Already!!

I'm going to die.
It may be the first time I have a whole spectrum of A's to D's on my report card.
And I REFUSE to let that happen!!!!!
Whyyy is AP US so hard?! I absolutely love the class and I'm NOT dropping out no matter what! But still!
At least a 13/15 on an essay is better than 3/10.

Thank you everyone! - Hyper Overdose by LittleMissSecret on Polyvore.com

-Obsessions-

Of course, the top 10 list.

1. Purple!
2. Acid-washed jeans
3. Cardigans
4. Anything warm
5. Someone... :)
6. Beautiful colour-changing autumn trees
7. Debate/speech
8. Glee!!
9. Playing piano versions of songs ----> Clicky!
10. Friendship bracelets

No. 132 by LittleMissSecret on Polyvore.com

I think that is the cutest picture ever!! :)

Glee and secret messages

2009-10-12T12:48:00.002-04:00

Do You Know? by

^If you know what this means it was probably meant for you :D

I finally went back to MissWonderlander on Polyvore and made some real-life sets! That was pretty fun. I'd like to have another photoshoot sometime.... It's like an annual thing (during spring break...aha). I usually go on my other account for secrets. I really love making those, and I'm so happy people actually... send me their secrets. It's a pretty liberating feeling to post them to the world... I think we're on secret No. 112 now.

I finally understand why all my friends have been urging me to watch "Glee" and why they think it's the best show ever.

Because IT IS.

I never watch stuff on TV 'cause I feel like I'll get addicted... It's true! But Glee is so good! And like... all the amazing singing!

But... see this is what I mean!! I've been watching all the episodes and NONE of my homework is done. Oh dear... This is exactly like my life during summer :D

The 3-day weekend is upon us!

2009-10-09T15:27:00.002-04:00

Together Forever by MissWonderlander featuring Miss Sixty

A really old Polyvore collage I found as I was looking through my sets...

It's kinda nice :)

Too bad I have too much homework to enjoy the Columbus Day weekend too much x____x But I'm looking forward to going to the spa!

A reply's reply

2009-10-07T15:26:00.007-04:00

I DON'T THINK you know just how amazing you are!
And how much I think about you.
You can't help who you fall in love afterall, but I know Two Years Time won't be that long if we're always together... in spirit? Aha.
It's okay if you don't like someone as much as they like you, or vice versa... it's like a see-saw (bad analogy..... aha)?
It doesn't matter if you feel like you can't like somebody forever, but when you start to miss people, can I be the first?

"Together we're invincible!!" - cue little people riding atop dinosaurs-
And miniscule is a pretty cool word. It must feel awesome to be at the top of the Eiffel Tower and
look down on the whole world from up there!
Of course the world is ten feet in diametre ;)
I wish we could hang out, or just do anything together. Someday we must get together and make tie-dye shirts, along with cookies!! Good practise for bakeries :D
Have you noticed that there has been less interference and odd-conspiracy-stuff through the telephone lines? I haven't even heard phantom voices! No more hazy, weird noises... hopefully!
Maybe they're truly for us now, something they should've realised a looong time ago!
You and me = forever !!

Love!! by LittleMissSecret on Polyvore.com

Post "Life is beautiful" if you read this all ;D

For the time being

2009-10-05T22:42:00.001-04:00

It's a bit late now to write anything awesome back to you, but thank you so much for your message and you totally made my day :)

Amazingness can't be defined without you!

:D

We'll destroy this world for you

2009-09-30T21:43:00.006-04:00

From Space Dementia! A very... haunting, ominous space-rockish kind of song. I used to not like it much except for the piano parts at the beginning... but I love it now! That's always the case with Muse, it seems.

School has become way too stressful. The only classes I have A's in are French III and possibly AP psychology... and physics (whoa I almost wrote "psychics" for a moment there!). Like... I'm epically failing in AP US, pre-calc (REGULAR!! For goodness' sake! It's all stupid, careless mistakes that weigh me down, 'cause I know the material! That would be the first.....), and AP chem. Actually I really like AP chem (the class) but... it's always tragic when you expect to do better than in actuality. I don't think a 0 out of----- I don't even know, 15? 20? is considered good... at all. Obviously.

But I'm not going to drop any APs!! I can't. I've already started it and I want to finish. Time is all I need... That's why I must must must do well or otherwise there will be disaster.

I've been procrastinating on my psychology homework with Polyvore secret sets for over a hour now.... :p

http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/profile?id=1004862

79 secrets since I made the secrets account 27 days ago. Wooooow. That's pretty amazing, and surreal (I think that's my new word)!!! It must feel so good for the people to liberate their secret to the world, anonmyously. I think the anonmynity is the best part :D

"H8
IS THE ONE FOR ME
YOU GIVE ME ALL I NEED
AND HELP ME CO-EXIST
WITH THE CHILLLLL

YOU MAKE ME SICK
'CAUSE I ADORE YOU SO
I LOVE ALL THE DIRTY TRICKS
AND TWISTED GAMES
YOU PLAY ON ME

SPACE DEMENTIA
IN YOUR EYES
AND PEACE WILL ARISE
AND TEAR US APART
AND MAKE US MEANINGLESS
AGAIN

YOU MAKE US WANNA DIE
I'D CUT YOUR NAME ON MY HEART
WE'LL DESTROY THIS WORLD FOR YOU
I KNOW YOU WANT ME TO
FEEL YOUR PAIN....

OOOOH..."

It's stuck in my head. And that piano melody tittering and playing over and over again... Caps Lock is fun for capital letters, btw!

Most Amazing Night Ever!!!

2009-09-30T15:55:00.004-04:00

"Wow, that was so goooood!!!!!!!!!"

That was all me and my friend could say after the Muse/U2 concert. Literally.

The weather was a gorgeous autumn day... Like crisp, with a slight breeze... And we started off with total panic after we realised my friend didn't have her ticket! So long story short, I had to figure out my dad's password to recover the tickets online. What a frenzy... The day was filled with amusing incidents though :D Like when we finally got to FedExField, we walked out of the car and were in awe of the huuuge stadium... so much so that we forgot our tickets! :p But I remembered. Thank goodness!

Muse was the supporting act, and we had to wait for about... a hour before they finally came on. It was an open stadium so we could see the cotton-candy-coloured skies above before it was finally dark, and the moon was overhead. So beautiful... I felt so at peace.

And when they finally came, I was so excited!!!! Like... wow. It's THEM!!! In person!! Matthew Bellamy, and everyone! Knights of Cydonia was first, and then... they played Hysteria, Supermassive Black Hole, Starlight, Uprising, United States of Eurasia, Plug in Baby... I feel like I'm missing something... Oh well. It was terribly short, I thought, but they sounded EXACTLY like their CD recordings/music videos!! (give or take a few extra guitar riffs) Wow. They're great live!! Their lighting and special effects on the big screen were reeeeaaaallllyyyy nice. Esp. on Starlight! All these psychedelic swirls... It was over way too soon >.< It'd be nice to see them on their own headlining tour sometime!

Then was U2!! We actually bumped into our pastor's wife (but we didn't see the pastor...) and another couple from Church there. It was pretty surreal! I wonder what they thought of Muse. But it was so funny, 'cause we went out to buy French fries and when we came back, the previously relatively empty stadium (I guess not alot of people know about Muse, still, in the U.S...) was FULL. Like every seat PACKED!! Wow. What a transformation!

U2 was... absolutely phenonmenal. I mean, I never really listened to their music prior to the concert but I was expecting to be blown away and coverted to a fan :D Bono is so inspirational. There was this rocket-like thing that glowed and looked really pretty, like a castle, in my opinion. And there were jets of lights right above our heads. The special effects are so nice. And there's this awesome screen with the lights show... My favourite effect was the disco-y lights scattered, lighting up on everyone. And then the "Milky Way" with everyone waving their cell phones in the darkness. And the music... wow. It ranges from like... peaceful to motivational to rock. And Bono gives inspirational mini-speeches... The whole night was just amazing. I wish I could do this every year for my birthday! :D

It was about 2 a.m. when we got home... A sleepover on a school night 'cause it was way too late to drive back to my house.

I felt like falling asleep in every single one of my classes today... but it was so worth it.
But now yesterday feels like so long ago..... Like I can't believe it happened! Once you're out of the stadium, the magicness disappears and you feel so surreal... Like "Did that really just happen??" Aha.

That's one life goal complete :)

If I could rearrange the periodic table...

2009-09-26T13:51:00.009-04:00

I would put Iodine and Uranium together.
(I and U! Like I love you... me and you together... get it?)
A chemistry joke from Cat... lol.

Music list :)

1. "Sink Or Swim" ~Tyrone Wells
2. "1234 asIAN remix" ~Feist
3. "Sing For Absolution (Acoustic)" ~Muse
4. "Hometown Glory" ~ADELE
5. "Space Dementia" ~Muse
6. "The Outside" ~Taylor Swift
7. "Inseparable" ~Jonas Brothers
8. "Bulletproof" ~La Roux
9. "Morning Lullabies" ~Ingrid Michaelson
10. "If I Talk To God ~The Last Goodnight

I'll add the YouTube links later..... AP chem and history calls. It's all so confusing... I feel like I can't even get the easiest labs right, but I'm clearly doing all the calculations accurately!! So odd >.< But...

The Muse concert is in THREE days!!!!!!!!! :D I'm so excited!!!!

"Kamikazi airplanes in the sky
Are we going down or will we fly?"

I love that line from "Sink Or Swim." Thanks Cat!

"I like it in the city when two worlds collide
You get the people and the government
Everybody taking different sides."

"Even when we're miles and miles apart
You're still holding all of my heart..."

Crunch crunch crunch

2009-09-22T20:09:00.002-04:00

I'm eating a Honeycrisp apple and it's sooo good!!! Hence the "crunch crunch crunch."

So hyper!!!!! I don't think I'll do anything tonight, no homework at all! And I failed two pre-calc quizzes, but oh well! Like I don't even caaare... Afterwards I remembered EVERYTHING about the unit circle, though, so it was like... "Darn!! If only I knew that like 5 minutes ago!" But whatever.

I want to make some friendship bracelets for people... and read 1986... I mean 84... My friend gave me a doll I really liked since forever! And these little butterfly pins made out of feathers. They're painted to look like butterflies :D And the wrapping paper Cat gave me also had butterflies on it... aha. And my A+ essay was also on butterflies! Tis a butterfly streakkk.

A hour goes by REALLY fast when you're talking over the phone.
I wish time could slow down! I hope I didn't make you miss your breakfast!! >.<
Thanks to everyone for the birthday wishes!!!!

First day of being 17, 364 days left until 18... Oh my gosh that is scary!
I liked being 15.
Oh, today's the first day of autumn!!! On my birthday! :D That happens. I feel special

Dix-sept ans!!!

2009-09-22T15:02:00.002-04:00

Oh my goodness.

So at 12:00 a.m. today, I turned 17! Is that surreal or whaat? I feel pretty old now x) But my friends were all very lovely and gave me gifts! Aaaw.

The rainbow cupcakes and brownies turned out good, and I ended up giving brownies to everyone in my AP chem class 'cause I felt bad since I was only giving it to my friends... My teacher even set aside time for us to eat even though we're never supposed to eat in that class :D Awesomeee. Perhaps my rainbow cupcake will convince her to not fail me on our massive, epic-ly hard test on Thursday!

Z pizza + Starbucks possibly tonight...
And phone calls! :D

Love is our resistance

2009-09-21T16:19:00.003-04:00

^The new Muse album isn't -that- bad. Which is good. But definitely inferior to Black Holes & Revelations!! Nothing beats that :p "Resistance" is really 1984-esque. Like I can just picture it as being the soundtrack to the book or something. Annnd... I can't get "I Belong To You (+Mon Cœur S’ouvre À Ta Voix) out of my head... "I've travelled half the world the say/I belong to you." Exogenesis: Symphony Part II (Cross Pollination) is the best of the symphony in my opinion. It's magical! But enough about that.

Today was a great day! The weather is sooo sunny and wonderful, and my friend came over afterschool and we walked around in the Sunshine Circle. And later I took pictures of these really pretty flowers. They were all bathed in sunshine and looking so lovely! So colourful and nice... It reminded me of the Alice in Wonderland photo shoot I had, for some reason. Probably just the nice weather!

And I tried orange marmalade for the first time today. My dad's trying to get us to try something new every week. And starfruit!! It reminds me of someone :D But I don't know how to eat it... lol.

So today my friend told me that out of all the AP lang classes, there were only two people who got perfect A's on their essay... And guess who?? I was one of them!!! :D And our teacher read my essay to the class and at the end, everyone was clapping.... It was a bit embarrassing, but wow! I can't believe that my teacher thought it was that good >.< Actually, he said the language was really beautiful, but he didn't quite understand the end at all... Aha. Oh well. Invincible!!

And now I have to bake rainbow cupcakes/brownies for tomorrow.
I don't even have that much hw!!! Yayness. I guess I'll just be reading 1984 and making friendship bracelets tonight.

MERCI BEAUCOUP :D

2009-09-21T16:14:00.004-04:00

Hey!
Thank you so much for the birthday wishes, my special friend!!
And I seriously can't believe that it's come this soon... like just two weeks ago I thought my birthday was in the distant future! But time flies.

I'm actually getting apples instead of cake, but it's a long story so I will be telling you in our telephone conversation. And it's nice of you to compliment my baking skills so graciously :p I'm not -that- good!

Together we're INVINCIBLE! :D
I love that video, btw! But I remember I had it on my iPod, but I wanted to watch it and couldn't find it... I have to re-upload it!
And ick, ham. It is quite disgusting, even though Ponyo loves it. Oh well, I forgive her 'cause she's so cute!
Thanks again for everything! And everything you wrote made me smile.
Together foreverrrrr!
Today felt like my birthday, even though it wasn't... Aha.
Maybe it's because of your birthday wishes! But it's okay.
Last day of being 16.
I should wake up at 11:59 p.m. and post something :p
Hello, goodbye.
"I feel like I really ought to thank somebody/So I ought to thank you/Thank you thank you thank you/Thank yoooou." ~Nonpareil of Favour (of Montreal)

Mille neuf cents quatre-vingt-quatre

2009-09-18T22:42:00.015-04:00

I finally get to talk to you, but it was merely for ten minutes.
Sometimes I feel so guilty for waking people up so early just so I can talk to them... It's so selfish of me. But I wake up at like 7 on weekends, so... I'm just weird.

Here's my butterflies essay, but it's pretty mediocre... I only like a few lines... And why is the font so ridiculous big and bizarre?? :( "Each one so fragile and prone to accidents, flying in a looking-glass world of disaster."

The end was inspired by something my friend said about Kurt's death being a brilliant end to his amazing persona... Lol. It's actually kinda appropriate though :)

A blur of dotted yellow wings in a field of hydrangeas. The most subtle flutter, so small, it makes one wonder if it had ever been there at all. Butterflies are a subject of wonder in the natural world. Such tiny, delicate creatures living in a perilous jungle filled with predators… A butterfly’s wings are transparent, covered with shimmering, iridescent scales. They belong to the Lepidoptera family, which means scale wing. Each shingle is filled with colour and ultraviolet patterns that cannot be seen by the human eye. The delicate scales can be held by a human being, but the more fragile darlings may die at the infinitesimal caress of a hand. Butterfly wings have 125,000 scales per square inch. Think about that in relation to humans, who have about 100 hairs per square inch on their head. Butterflies can carry 50 times their own body weight. Imagine a microscopic butterfly, flying along to the nearest flower with 50 other butterflies on its back. Each butterfly is born as an egg, then transforms to a larva, pupa, and finally, an adult. The metamorphosis process is arduous and painful as the butterfly forms its organs and body from a bound cocoon. When they first emerge from their chrysalis, their wings are more delicate than ever, and terribly wet and wrinkled. It must then hang upside down to pump blood into its wings to inflate them. The paper-thin wings must be completely dry before butterflies can fly. If the wings are torn, there is no repair. Free-falling from the heavens above, stumbling amidst the brilliant blue skies, and finally crashing to the ground with a halt.

Butterflies are all cold-blooded; they depend on the sun for warmth so they can fly. If their body temperature is less than 86 degrees, say farewell to flying… Death will be greeting them at the door. Imagine a cold winter night, when soft snow flurries gently fall to the ground. While children are rejoicing over the lack of school, think of the butterflies that may be freezing to death. A poor little thing, lying still on the side of a road, hidden by the frostbitten grass. Butterflies weigh as much as two rose petals, but inside their compact bodies is the ability to travel thousands of miles. Adult butterflies don’t eat; they only drink. Yet they are filled with energy to flutter their miniature statures around the world. Their life span is quite short, ranging from three days to forty days. The occasional butterfly can survive for ten months. Perhaps the next time you’re walking, there will be some butterflies that magically appear in your path: small brownish skipperlings, cobalt-blue gossamer-wings, glitter-dusted elfins, majestic monarchs, papilionidae swallowtails, buttercup-yellow sulphurs, magenta-covered checkerspots, metalmarks and tortoiseshells. Each one so fragile and prone to accidents, flying in a looking-glass world of disaster. All living beings are. We yearn to have wings to fly, like those precious butterflies.

We are so breakable, the casual events of everyday life shattering our weak and vulnerable wings. They have just begun to grow, one’s self-confidence and independence emerging from the cracks, when a sudden event can bring the world crashing down. Someone special leaving for two years, the words “Did you hear about her?” whispered softly as cruel rumours, a divorce, the slow but inevitable drift between friends… Kids often dream of flying when they’re young, and many still do. Dreaming of sprouting wings to fly out of this place, to soar far, far away, even if they don’t know where they’re going or what the future holds. From being in a cocoon to the final stages of metamorphosis, coming out of that shell is like saying “Hello” to growing up, leaving behind a world of innocence. “It’s better to burn out than fade away,” Kurt Cobain says. To die, to be humiliated, to be embarrassed, to feel the pains of growing up----- wouldn’t it be all worth it if only we could touch the skies above for just a nanosecond, and race towards the galaxies with exuberance and recklessness? As the feeble butterfly struggles to get up after its wings have been snapped in half, its death marks the final, brilliant stroke on a painting, a masterpiece. It, like we, have learned to fly, if only for a moment.

Winston and Julia. 1984.

"Nevertheless it had been very difficult not to betray a momentary surprise, for in the two or three seconds while he was helping her up the girl had slipped something into his hand. There was no question that she had done it intentionally. It was something small and flat. As he passed through the lavatory door he transferred it to his pocket and felt it with the tips of his fingers. It was a scrap of paper folded into a square... He readjusted his spectacles on his nose, sighed, and drew the next batch of work toward him, with the scrap of paper on top of it. He flattened it out. On it was written, in a large unformed handwriting:

I love you.

(95).