I'm thinking about you, in my secret language.

"My British Tour Diary" ~Of Montreal

"On our trip to England I noticed something obscene
People still actually give a shit about the Queen
Though London girls aren't snobs at all
And Brighton's lovely in the fall
Left alone to drive ourselves on the opposite side
Man, it was a miracle that nobody died
Hanging out with Steven, Drew, Theo, Paul, and Sorrel, too
Eating at Welcome Breaks daily
We danced in Leeds with Brit Pop Haley

Performing with the Apples
And then crashing at the Wrights
Bitching because Steven booked us
On such early flights
Always in a foggy haze
Because we hadn't slept for days
Every single one of our London cabbies played
The most truly repellent techno music ever made
But they'll drop you without hesitation
If you try changing the station

Up to our necks in crisps and litter
In the van we dubbed the Gary Glitter ."

"Heimdalsgate Like a Promethean Curse" ~Of Montreal

This reminds me so much of psychology, and all the chemicals in your brain! :D Also, my AP psych teacher -would- probably play this since his favourite band is Of Montreal. The do do do do part makes me smile! And want to dance (although I really can't).

"I'm in a crisis
I need help
Come on mood shift, shift back to good again
Come on mood shift, shift back to good again
Come on, be a friend

Nina Twin is trying to help, and I
Really hope that she succeeds
Though I picked the thorny path myself
I'm afraid, afraid of where it leads

Chemicals, don't strangle my pen
Chemicals, don't make me sick again
I'm always so dubious of your intent
Like I can't afford to replace what you've spent

Nina Twin is trying to help, and I
Really hope she gets me straight
Because my own inner cosmology
Has become too dense to navigate

I'm in a crisis
I need help
Come on mood shift, shift back to good again
Come on mood shift, shift back to good again
Come on, be a friend

Chemicals, don't flatten my mind
Chemicals, don't mess me up this time
Know you bait me way more than you should
And it's just like you to hurt me when I'm feeling good

Come on chemicals."

Goodnight.
And on a completely random note, I FINALLY figured out how to pronounce "Nietzsche!"
:D

Sattelighte.
Catts and myce.



(An old picture taken at a photo shoot with my friend; I think we were trying to capture a shot with the spider web... hmm!)

Sleepless nights

"We're all quite mad, you'll fit right in." ~an Alice button my friend randomly found... and gave to me. Thank you! It's nice having everyone know your obsession 'cause they tend to associate you with it...

I just called my grandma & grandpa... It's 2 in the afternoon in Beijing, 12-hr time difference... I really miss them...... They told me I can miss them but I can't be sad and let it affect my mood... Now I know what it means when people say they feel guilty if they don't miss anyone but the opposite extreme is being reeeally sad and over-missing...

I still can't sleep and it's now 2:40... I need to listen to peaceful, calm music.... Sigur Rós and Sia, perhaps?

Did you know that instead of "...", in China it's always "......". Six dots, not three! And another weird phenomenon, some people in Beijing put their headphone strings inside their shirt...... Pretty odd.

This reminds me of Catcher in the Rye...

Everything is so still and silent at night... Dark and glittering with stars. It's so quiet here compared to the busy streets of Beijing where there are taxis and cars at even 2 in the morning...

Bonjour, ça va??

It's 1:58 and I can't sleep... I slept the entire trip on the plane! No wonder...!!!

Wow, I can't believe half of the summer already passed by!!! It went by pretty fast... now I'm back!!!!! And facing tons of AP summer assignments, unfortunately... Fun fun fun. I sat on the plane wishing I could jump out the window and bounce on the fluffy clouds... except everything turned foggy and grey and I didn't prepare any balloons or parachutes if I did!

Everything seems so white when I first walked in my house from the airport... I think Beijing's terribly polluted :( I wish my plane landed past 8 so I could see the neon lights from above... I love looking at the night scene from airplanes!! Oh well.

Tis nice to come back and be re-connected to the Internet, although it wasn't that hard without going online everyday in China... I guess it's just a matter of what there is to do? Chatting with a friend for awhile before trying to fall asleep made me even more hyper... Is this what they call insomnia? :/

3.

It seems to be a frequent-appearing number now...

3:

-the number of people in my family
-the time I'll probably attempt to fall asleep
-the number of days until my friend leaves forever
-the number of days I'll see someone in-a-row
-the number of Alice in Wonderland shirts I have

........It's not as cool as Mum and Dad said it was here... It's kind of hot and humid-ish! I wish I could fall asleep listening to my iPod but it has no battery... Boooored...

Could someone please sing me to sleep?



Amazing silhouettes...

Bonne nuit!